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[learnedtosmile]

[Hello again, Tranquility. Blake's face is probably not a popular one, after his last appearance, but today he looks tired and remorseful instead of angry. So that's an improvement, right? Indeed, he wouldn't even be doing this except he knows he owes it to everyone. So he definitely looks like a man who is biting the bullet – a particularly unpleasant, embarrassing one.]

I know a lot of you were really confused and angry over my last network post. I'm sure many of you would rather not give me the time of day right now, and that's fair enough. I don't deserve much, after the things I said and did. I certainly don't deserve or expect forgiveness for them. But I owe it to everyone to apologize, so that's what I'm doing.

[Here he glances away momentarily. He hates talking about... private things, about feelings, but this is his responsibility right now.]

I wore my mask. A few times. It was a really bad call on my part, but at the time I thought that would be the best way to figure out what it did. Be the guinea pig, I guess. I didn't anticipate the consequences. Every minor annoyance became a major problem, became something that I needed to blame someone for, and my brain-to-mouth filter was completely removed.

I don't say this to excuse myself – there is no excuse for what I said, because those were still my words, or what I did, because those were always my actions. I was in control of myself, albeit in an altered state. It was still me making those choices, and they were bad ones, and I take full responsibility for them.

That said, I don't actually believe the things I said. There are always issues, problems, points of contention, in any community, but I sincerely believe that most of the people on this ship are doing their best to help everyone, to figure this out and get us home. What I said, the way I acted, I learned a long time ago that those things are not productive. It was stupid of me, and I'm sorry.

I really can't say it enough: I'm sorry.


((ooc: so Blake has been noticeably absent both on the network and on the Tranquility in general since his angry post of anger. Pretty much the only thing he's been doing are his security patrols; otherwise he's basically been in his room, brooding, not talking to anyone he normally talks to. Feel free to comment on this!))

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[dirtyword]

I need to talk to you.

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[cargojet]

So that outburst last week, you're seriously blaming that on your mask? Too hard to admit you're just an asshole?

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[jurisimpudent]

Every word seemed to have been the product of a long-simmering resentment.

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[thenormalsquint]

Everybody deserves a second chance.

[Which means he's forgiven by her.]

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[puppydogeyes]

[Taylor hadn't gone near his last appearance on the network, because it had blindsided her, truly. The idea that some people might have trouble with how any of the ship's authority figures might be doing things wasn't lost on her, but her own confidence wasn't as solid as she made out, and Blake had seemed reliable. Steady. She hadn't known what to do with his outburst and she isn't sure what to do with this, either. But she responds, eventually,]

You got rid of it?

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[coffeeking]

That's what the masks do? They... what, amplify your anger?

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[wigs]

I'm sure everyone understands, dear. At least you had the good grace to apologize for your outburst.

[Effie actually has gone back and looked at his previous network post. To her, it was merely a fit of temper -- warranted or unwarranted, she doesn't know. But that's not the topic at hand.]

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[felinely]

[ Look who decided to grace the network with her face - aren't you lucky, Blake? ]

So you're blaming that outburst on The Mask? [ and yes, she doesn't look all too impressed, but she is willing to listen to him here and see why he thinks that. ]

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[unforgives]

Wearing the mask has that sort of effect?