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( ooc | part two of neal's guidebook to a walking tour of hell. )
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ataraxion N E T W O R K . - November 3rd, 2012
03 November 2012 @ 01:43 am
( ooc | part two of neal's guidebook to a walking tour of hell. )
03 November 2012 @ 12:07 pm
[Work is going to keep Jesse out of trouble. That's why he's doing this, making a PSA when he would like nothing better than to bury his face in some powder. He looks miserable, but at least he's sober.]
The masks. I dunno if you guys, like, watch a lotta TV where you're from. But where I come from, movies'll teach you not to just mess around with mysterious creepy shit that shows up outta nowhere.
I already mentioned this to a couple people, but I'll get rid of your mask for you. I know they keep coming back, but I'll do it every day. My room's eight twenty-four. You can just drop it off there or at the science labs or give it to me if you see me around and I'll take care of the rest.
Uh, that's it. I guess.
The masks. I dunno if you guys, like, watch a lotta TV where you're from. But where I come from, movies'll teach you not to just mess around with mysterious creepy shit that shows up outta nowhere.
I already mentioned this to a couple people, but I'll get rid of your mask for you. I know they keep coming back, but I'll do it every day. My room's eight twenty-four. You can just drop it off there or at the science labs or give it to me if you see me around and I'll take care of the rest.
Uh, that's it. I guess.
03 November 2012 @ 06:11 pm
[ that is actually all that you're getting today, Tranquility. Someone is perhaps pensive. You may find her in one of the lounges, playing idly with her mask, black feathered and formidably beautiful. ]
03 November 2012 @ 10:22 pm
Why don't they say anything?? I can see them!!
[The voice that picks up is excited, eager, as though they've figured out part of a puzzle and are attempting to solve the rest.]
When I put on my mask, I can see my papa, and Reika and the others from home...! I can see them. Why don't they say anything? Are they frozen? If they're in trouble, I gotta help... How can I help them?
[Takeshi's voice is muffled. Mainly because he's got his mask on. He'd tried it on days ago, if only by curiosity, and now... Well, he's finding himself more and more attached to it. Even if it's sad to look at, it's like it reminds him of something. It feels so important to wear it. The voice is more distant for a moment, as he turns away from the comm and aims his words at something in his room that just isn't there.]
... Papa, why don't you say anything?
Did I do something wrong? Are you mad at me for running off...?
[his voice is a little watery, heartbroken at the thought of his dad being upset with him. he was happy before, but now...
For some reason, he's scared. He feels it, deep in his bones, in his heart. A familiar pang.]
I swear I didn't leave on purpose; please don't go away, okay? I'll save you.
[The voice that picks up is excited, eager, as though they've figured out part of a puzzle and are attempting to solve the rest.]
When I put on my mask, I can see my papa, and Reika and the others from home...! I can see them. Why don't they say anything? Are they frozen? If they're in trouble, I gotta help... How can I help them?
[Takeshi's voice is muffled. Mainly because he's got his mask on. He'd tried it on days ago, if only by curiosity, and now... Well, he's finding himself more and more attached to it. Even if it's sad to look at, it's like it reminds him of something. It feels so important to wear it. The voice is more distant for a moment, as he turns away from the comm and aims his words at something in his room that just isn't there.]
... Papa, why don't you say anything?
Did I do something wrong? Are you mad at me for running off...?
[his voice is a little watery, heartbroken at the thought of his dad being upset with him. he was happy before, but now...
For some reason, he's scared. He feels it, deep in his bones, in his heart. A familiar pang.]
I swear I didn't leave on purpose; please don't go away, okay? I'll save you.
03 November 2012 @ 10:24 pm
We're so terribly pathetic, aren't we? All the time that some of us have spent here, and all we can do is form our sad little allegiances, hoping that our perceived solidarity will save us from some invisible monster - but not the one you might be thinking of.
The monster in question is our own painful insignificance.
What are we upon this ship? We are nothing. We are a speck amongst a cluster of stars and universes so far flung from our own, with nothing to our names but our few possessions and the memory of what we might have been in our own worlds. We are a joke to existence, plucked from our homes to be deposited in a mire of stupidity and games and misfortune, and someone is watching over us, laughing. Look at these creatures. Did they ever think they had any purpose except to be a toy for some higher power? Months upon months and we find no solutions, no answers to our questions, just death and danger, and the allure of survival isn't much when survival means returning to this cycle of nothingness over and over.
You say, perhaps we return to our friends, our loved ones. A valid point, I suppose - but not really. The relationships we make here are worthless. They have no means to last, for eventually we shall all die, or we shall be taken from here, replaced by other versions of ourselves we never could have dreamed of. One day perhaps we shall all wake in our own beds and this won't even be a forgotten dream, it will be wiped from us, clean. Bonds made from experiences of chaos and turmoil will dissolve like sugar in water.
Insignificance. That is all we wish to alleviate by making friends, people who we keep at arms length - we all talk about secrets here, but how often do we share our own? I can't imagine us as an honest collective; not for a moment. We are all full of little things that shame us, or would put us in less than favourable positions, if everyone else knew, but we like to maintain a pretence of clarity, or at least a desire for it. I wonder how many of us have taken a life? How many of us have advantages over others in unnatural ways? How many of us talk about it?
Wilt thou forgive that sin where I begun,
Which was my sin though it were done before?
Wilt thou forgive that sin through which I run,
And do run still, though still I do deplore?
When thou hast done, thou hast not done,
For I have more.
We have more.
Tell me, does anyone here pray to a god, or perhaps gods? Do you speak to them in times of fear, hoping that they will send you a blessing? Do you think they can hear you? Universes and worlds away, you have been forgotten. Abandoned. Your gods, your existence, they don't care or matter. What empty, pointless entities they are, sitting on pedestals we make for them when we never even knew the vast, godless spaces out there that existed. Thou has made me, and shall Thy work decay? No, thou shalt not, for I am no longer under your jurisdiction, like a criminal dancing on the border and making faces at authorities that can only wade through bureaucratic idiocy in order to have any power over me once again.
When thou hast done, thou hast not done,
For we have more.
( ooc: particularly skilled hackers should be able to trace this post back to oxford, except that cambridge will be blocking attempts to do so as soon as he figures out the post is oxford's.
the verse included here is from a hymn to god the father by john donne, while the line embedded in the text is from john donne's first holy sonnet.)
The monster in question is our own painful insignificance.
What are we upon this ship? We are nothing. We are a speck amongst a cluster of stars and universes so far flung from our own, with nothing to our names but our few possessions and the memory of what we might have been in our own worlds. We are a joke to existence, plucked from our homes to be deposited in a mire of stupidity and games and misfortune, and someone is watching over us, laughing. Look at these creatures. Did they ever think they had any purpose except to be a toy for some higher power? Months upon months and we find no solutions, no answers to our questions, just death and danger, and the allure of survival isn't much when survival means returning to this cycle of nothingness over and over.
You say, perhaps we return to our friends, our loved ones. A valid point, I suppose - but not really. The relationships we make here are worthless. They have no means to last, for eventually we shall all die, or we shall be taken from here, replaced by other versions of ourselves we never could have dreamed of. One day perhaps we shall all wake in our own beds and this won't even be a forgotten dream, it will be wiped from us, clean. Bonds made from experiences of chaos and turmoil will dissolve like sugar in water.
Insignificance. That is all we wish to alleviate by making friends, people who we keep at arms length - we all talk about secrets here, but how often do we share our own? I can't imagine us as an honest collective; not for a moment. We are all full of little things that shame us, or would put us in less than favourable positions, if everyone else knew, but we like to maintain a pretence of clarity, or at least a desire for it. I wonder how many of us have taken a life? How many of us have advantages over others in unnatural ways? How many of us talk about it?
Which was my sin though it were done before?
Wilt thou forgive that sin through which I run,
And do run still, though still I do deplore?
When thou hast done, thou hast not done,
For I have more.
We have more.
Tell me, does anyone here pray to a god, or perhaps gods? Do you speak to them in times of fear, hoping that they will send you a blessing? Do you think they can hear you? Universes and worlds away, you have been forgotten. Abandoned. Your gods, your existence, they don't care or matter. What empty, pointless entities they are, sitting on pedestals we make for them when we never even knew the vast, godless spaces out there that existed. Thou has made me, and shall Thy work decay? No, thou shalt not, for I am no longer under your jurisdiction, like a criminal dancing on the border and making faces at authorities that can only wade through bureaucratic idiocy in order to have any power over me once again.
For we have more.
( ooc: particularly skilled hackers should be able to trace this post back to oxford, except that cambridge will be blocking attempts to do so as soon as he figures out the post is oxford's.
the verse included here is from a hymn to god the father by john donne, while the line embedded in the text is from john donne's first holy sonnet.)