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[mansuetus]

[ Lucrezia is in one of the lounges! Sprawled on one of the sofas, fingers busy turning a pendent of gold in the shape of a sea-horse. There are no poems today, no joyful greetings, something is different. She looks more pensive than anything else but there is a shade of concern there as well as quiet annoyance.

When she speaks, her voice is devoid of any of it. Her eyes still focused on the sea-horse. ]

A riddle, Tranquility.

How to mourn for someone who does not deserve it?

If your duty demands it and you have no desire to - do all men need to be mourned for? Is it a a more grievous sin not to mourn than it is to speak false words of grievance?

[ a beat. ]

Perhaps I must fast again.

[ a moment later she puts down her necklace, smiles. ]

I would have a cup of wine with your answer, if any of you have some to spare. You will join me in the lounge.

[ and it is not a question. ]

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[firms]

I'm going to say that's not a bad thing.

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[mansuetus]

Why?

[ honestly curious. ]

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[firms]

Because, growing. Becoming a different person. Sometimes, it's necessary. You prove to yourself you can do something.

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[mansuetus]

I have proven to myself that I can care for myself, I reckon.

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[firms]

That's a great thing.

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[mansuetus]

It is. Though it has a price as well.

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[firms]

What's the price?

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[mansuetus]

Sadness, I fear. I wonder if one can grow up being solely happy.

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[firms]

One can't. It wouldn't be a way to live. They could grow up lying to themselves. But, they can't grow up strictly happy. Without the right medication. [ Bad joke. ] But, life isn't strictly about happiness. It's about capability. And self worth. And finding yourself.

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[mansuetus]

Will I liked the woman I shall find in the end?

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[firms]

Only you know the answer to that. I hope so.

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[mansuetus]

As do I, signore Rachel.

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[firms]

My condolences, again.