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36411- ᴛʏᴋᴇ × ᴛᴀʏʟᴏʀ ᴋᴇᴇ ([personal profile] puppydogeyes) wrote in [community profile] ataraxion2013-01-09 09:56 pm

NINE: video

[The room Taylor's sat in is dark, unidentifiable from the wall behind her, but soft, blue-tinged light from another source washes over her face intermittently. It highlights how drawn she looks, pale, tired. She's a mess, really. Even by Tranquility standards.]

It's January, right? Been counting on the jumps since I got here. [She isn't slurring as she speaks, but the lack of focus in her expression and sluggishness to her movements makes it clear she's inebriated to anyone who knows what to look for.] Guess it doesn't matter though. Just start calling them by numbers. I was meant to turn twenty in December. Be an instructor back at the Academy. [She frowns for a moment, taking a drink out of an unlabelled bottle.] Or maybe they'd have terminated me.

[Another pause, and she shifts off to the side for a moment, putting the bottle down. When she comes back into view she’s holding something else – a mask. Her mask, an mongrel canine face, beaten, bruised and bloody. She holds it up, hanging off the fingers of one hand.]

Turns out these show you ghosts. Hallucinations. Whatever. If that isn't fucked up enough to get you thinking don't touch them, you're a fucking idiot. [Very evidently angry, suddenly, half a snarl on her mouth. She looks at the mask again, then drops it to one side.] Didn't want to see my old man the little he was around, sure as fuck didn't want to see him here. Thing I've been thinking, though - what do you see, you wear someone else's?

[She doesn't hold the second mask up for the camera, but it's there in her hands, looks like a modern military gas mask. She's quiet for a long while, like she maybe forgot she even had the comms running, all of the anger and energy drained out of her again.]

Tommy's gone. Gone last jump. Told him he would, cause everyone goes. [A thin smile, strained, sad, and then gone again.] Guess I didn't wanna be right.
unparental: ( eaѕycoмpany ) (❝ april was supposed to be the moat)

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[personal profile] unparental 2013-02-20 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
Can I ask you a question? It's going to sound-- kind of insensitive, but I think maybe I get it a little more now.

[ because she may not know everything about tyke but by now jenna is secure that she knows her (two entirely different things, in her opinion) and that's genuine frustration and confusion, not just denial. ]
unparental: ( eaѕycoмpany ) (❝ your favorite kind of cake can't be)

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[personal profile] unparental 2013-02-21 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
When you think about him being gone, what happens? To you, I mean-- feelings, thoughts, physical responses. No right or wrong answers, just... whatever comes to mind.
unparental: ( eaѕycoмpany ) (❝ they're mean conniving rude)

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[personal profile] unparental 2013-02-23 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay. Now, another dumb-sounding question-- thank you for dealing with this, by the way-- but what does pissed off feel like to you?

No stupid answers, 'bad' is just as valid as 'my throat starts to hurt'.
unparental: ( eaѕycoмpany ) (❝ how am i supposed to find the love)

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[personal profile] unparental 2013-02-26 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. Another dumb question, I'm almost done I promise. What does loss feel like? Or grief. If anything, 'I don't know' works if you really don't.
unparental: ( eaѕycoмpany ) (❝ april you're like an angel with no)

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[personal profile] unparental 2013-02-27 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
I think I was... pushing for something because I expected it to be there, and not--

[ she pauses. ]

Let me think about something for a little bit, okay? And thank you, Tyke. Seriously, I know this isn't your favorite thing in the world.