ataraxion | [text] eridan's guide to being melancholy

howw many trolls are evven left on this ship anymore
i mean seriously an i thought wwe wwere small numbers before the jump noww its just like me an wwhat twwo or three others

tavvs gone i thought that wwould be kind a fuckin awwesome since he wwas a fuckin burden alwways hangin around bein stupid an having shitty slam poetry sessions wwith gam like that wwas somethin they wwere good at
hint there is no fuckin wway either a them wwere evver good at that in the history of for fuckin evver
but still its kind a unsettlin i mean okay so say they did just go back to wwherevver in time an space they came from
thats not fuckin reassurin our time an space sucked almost as much as this fuckin creepy ship
an wwhat does that say about the rest a us
i mean wwe could disappear at any fuckin time an go back to wwhatevver livves wwe left
or in some cases wwe just die an end up in dream bubbles not that i expect any a you to knoww wwhat thats about
wwould wwe evven remember wwhat happened or wwould wwe completely just forget

an wwhat if wwe dont go back wwhere wwe came from wwhen wwe disappear
wwhat the fuck happens
shit wwhat if this is wwhat that wweird fuckin text in that room wwas talkin about
ugh
i guess im just kind a wworried about all a this i mean howw are wwe supposed to protect ourselvves an howw can anyone handle hangin around here knowwin that shit could happen at any time
poof
i could be gone after i hit send here
if i dont respond thats wwhat happened
ivve just plain disappeared off a the face a the fuckin univverse

noww i dont wwant to hit send wwhat if i fucked myself ovver just then by sayin that
cod
this is stupid
fuck this

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Recuperacoon? Can't say I've heard of those, but in my case it's more of an uncomfortable bed that refuses to cooperate.

[ But not really. He just doesn't like it here. ]

Doesn't mean you can't try to get one rather than agree with what humans need.

see thats wwhere youre wwrong i cant just get one delivvered or anythin
firstly wwere in fuckin space its kind a hard to find a courier around here in case you didnt notice
secondly theyre all gone no more recuperacoons no more sopor no more any a that because its all blowwn up
an the ones that didnt bloww up are in a different univverse an unless somehoww trolls exist here theres no kelpin it
im pretty much fucked

howw does a bed refuse to cooperate its just a bunch a fluff

1. If there's one ship, there's bound to be another. We just need to find it.
2. They're beds. You'd be surprised at the number I went through before coming here.
3. .... So you're fucked. That's a shame. Can't have you dying on me.

good luck wwith findin anythin else out in the black do you knoww howw big space is
its not like theyre sentient or anythin they cant fight back you just pile your stuff on top an hop in
wwho said anythin about dyin an wwhy wwould it matter if i did to you anywway
but no im just gonna be fuckin exhausted for the rest a my life

Big enough that something has to exist here.

You're interesting enough to notice.

there are space stations an stuff like that sure wwevve been to one since this thing started but wwe meant to find it
wwithout us knowwin wwhere to look its hard to find anythin

oh

wwell yeah a course i am im wway more fuckin interestin than most a the people on this stupid junker im dashin mysterious an nonhuman those are like all anyone evver needs around here

How long have you been here then? If they've only run into one other station so far?

Of course. Humans were always repetitive, everyone else on the other hand, isn't.

four jumps noww so just about 100 days or somethin close to that i dont really knoww it all blurs together

oh yeah good point i guess

I imagine with that amount of time spent here, it certainly would. And you’ve seen nothing out of the ordinary?

i nevver said that
theres been plenty a wweird stuff
if wwere forgettin about the wwhole point a this post theres still endless corridors wwith mysterious missin rooms wwith skeletons in them an monsters that go around eatin people

[ .... That gets silence on Erik's end and a considerable delay before he finally texts back. It's not something he should be surprised by, but still, puts Erik on his guard to be more aware when running around the ship exploring. ]

Lovely. Can't even get a moment of brooding then, I expect if you're occupied by threats. If its any consolation, I find distracting myself from my issues by a little mayhem never goes awry.

hah
i knoww all about a lil bit a mayhem an i knoww itll go fuckin off the wwalls if i evven lifted a finger to be evven the littlest bit mischievvous
i got bad luck wwith mayhem

Then you're not trying hard enough to achieve your results. Bad luck only occurs with those who don't put in the effort. I'd say it depends entirely on what your end goal with being mischievous is.

hey fuck you i tried twwice as hard as my hardest
but it wwasnt supposed to be mayhem it wwas supposed to be a quick speech then abscondin the fuck awway but a course it nevver ended like that instead i had to go an be fuckin stupid

Define stupid, then. If you claim you tried twice hard you wouldn't have made a mistake.

reely stupid
like imagine doin the stupidest thing you possibly could to the person wwho matters most to you an then multiply that by like a million
that stupid

[ .................... NO WORDS ERIDAN. ]

Been there.

[ .... a lot. And damn if you had to hit all of his sensitive buttons. ]

You couldn't do worse than me.

youre wwrong

ivve done wworse than anyone

Try me.

[Eridan's thought process goes a little like this:
wow okay don't tell him, eridan, don't tell anyone, that's a stupid idea, you know it's stupid, because you need people to actually trust you and like you remember?

...shit.]

i killed my entire race wwithout evven blinkin
an i felt vvindicated doin it

an i killed a lot a people i really liked just because i fuckin could
so yeah unless youvve killed off the entire fuckin chance a your species continuin on an bleww a hole through the only person wwho you evver thought actually mattered you can shut right the fuck up because thats wwhat i did

I shot my best friend.

[ No other words, because Erik doesn't have anything else to say. What do you say when someone tells them they killed their entire world and I'm sorry never quite works, no matter the situation. ]

oh

[What do you say to that? It's not as bad as what he did, but Eridan knows it... it's not something to play off.]

that
really sucks

Yes it does.

[ Once again. What else do you say now. They've hit a snag where Erik needs a distraction and this isn't a conversation he wants to talk about. But in a way, they bond and hey it sort of works? ]

[Eridan's in the exact same position on his side of the conversation. But, the one good thing about him is that...

Well, he never shuts up. So at least he can get the conversation moving again.]

wwell at least you knoww noww that you cant do any wworse than me so maybe i can at least be some kind a reassurin figure in your life aboard the ss wwhat the fuck is wwrong wwith evveryone

Considering the ship we're on, I'd say it can get worse. But I'll take the reassurance regardless.

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[text] eridan's guide to being melancholy

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text --> shitty lock look at that lack of skill jeeze eridan.

text | aka best lock ever

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text | welp brotimes.

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