Fourth Summons : Text

[shallbeavenged]

[She doesn't like sleeping, she doesn't like needing sleep and she doesn't like what comes with sleep.]

Is there a way to stop yourself from dreaming when you sleep?

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[acapriciousthing]

No.

I've met a lot of beings in my time, but never anyone without something worth caring about.

[shallbeavenged]

Can I ask you some questions? In person?

[acapriciousthing]

Of course. I always have time for you.

[You might as well face it, you've been adopted]

[shallbeavenged]

Now or later?

[One of these days she will realize it and be even more confused.]

[acapriciousthing]

I'm free now if you'd like

[shallbeavenged]

Okay.

Where are you?

[acapriciousthing]

I just finished my shift, so I'm headed to the gardens.

[shallbeavenged]

I'll go there too then.

[acapriciousthing]

I'll see you soon.

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[shallbeavenged]

[And you will soon find Ai in the gardens.]

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[acapriciousthing]

[She's there equally quickly. The joy of teleporting.]

Hi Ai.

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[shallbeavenged]

[Best part of her powers. That and the fire.]

Hello. ...thank you for coming to talk to me.

[She doesn't understand why but being on the ship long enough means she understands the concept of other versions of yourself existing and if some version of her had trusted Death...Didi to talk to...well it's worth a shot to try and understand why.]

Re: action

[acapriciousthing]

You're welcome.

[She pats the ground next to her]

Have a seat.

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[shallbeavenged]

[She sits down next to her. Well she's here to ask questions and she might as well start with the main one.]

Do you think I should stop trying to bury my emotions while I'm here?

[And it sounds silly but its oh so serious because Ai and her emotions always lead to terrible things. There's always the risk of going back and not being able to keep them in check again or even that she'll one day lose her temper here.]

Re: action

[acapriciousthing]

There's nothing wrong with having feelings, Ai. And this is probably a safer place to explore that than at home.

[She appreciates that her home situation is complicated. But she's all for taking opportunities to grow when they present themselves.]

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[shallbeavenged]

But if I trust someone again and they betray me....

[And then half the ship ends up on fire. She knows that wouldn't probably happen. She's learnt her lesson about revenge. Learnt it all too well the second time. But still. It terrifies her that she could lose control again.]

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[acapriciousthing]

I'm not going to promise you that won't happen.

[She can't, because sometimes it happens]

But if you let that stop you from getting close to people, you're going to miss out on a lot of the fun of being alive.

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[shallbeavenged]

But I'm not alive. Not really.

Re: action

[acapriciousthing]

We're all a little more alive here than we would be normally. It's a chance to explore that.

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[shallbeavenged]

[She seems to mull this over a bit.]

If....if something happens. Will you stop me from....trying to seek revenge?

[She doesn't want to become that person again. Not after seeing what revenge truly does to a person.]

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[acapriciousthing]

I will.

[SHe kept another you from setting Eddie on fire, after all]

Because you matter to me.

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[shallbeavenged]

[That makes Ai pause because no, why. this isn't right.]

But I'm not the person you knew. I don't remember that.

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[acapriciousthing]

Caring about people isn't a limited resources. Just because you're not her doesn't mean you don't still matter.

[She loves everyone okay?]

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[shallbeavenged]

....but I don't?

[She has no sense of self worth. What are you doing.]

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[acapriciousthing]

Ai. In ten billion years, I have never met anyone who doesn't matter.

[And she's met a lot of people.]