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I have heard then in some lands they say there are white lies as opposed to those of the darker sort.

explain.

no one has actually tried lying to you
have they

they have.

and I do not know how to forgive them.

who would do that to you

forgiveness depends on what it was about i suppose
how harmful / harmless
but i dont think you actually have to

one who I love deeply hence my anger and sadness.

I want to forgive them one moment and in the next, I want to strike them across the face for having betrayed me so.

you could always strike first
see if that sates the impulse

if not strike them again
if you still dont feel ready to forgive maybe its not meant to be -> more striking

such violence from a pope's daughter?

I have no one to confess such sins to here.

if theyve wronged you so badly you probably dont need to confess them anyways
because punching them and writing them off as an unforgivable bastard probably isnt a sin

he broke my trust and my heart both.

[ which is the truth. she's as sad as she is angry. ]

They would never mend. not for all the strikes in the world.

if its this bad why are you even thinking of forgiving them

I love him.

love is a foolish thing.

people can be undeserving of love

he was my whole world.

he is all I have left, Sirius.

[There's a slight pause, something of a mix between wariness and confusion.]

where are you

my room. I have not felt well all day.

well enough to open the door if i come & knock on it
ten minutes?

just enough to open the door.

I would not need to do more would I?

[ spoiled ]

no more than that
& i'd even carry you back to your bed

[He loves you Lulu, spoilt and all.]

you wont even need to smile
just count to 500 & be ready to open the door

500? I would fall asleep. That's too long.

35.

30 is far too short!

25
20
15
10

go to the door
5 4 3 2

[and there is right then a knocking that starts.]

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