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ataraxion2013-07-11 04:57 pm
mathematically) wrote in ataraxion2013-07-11 04:57 pm
fourth molotov cocktail made ☾ ( anonymous text )
[ there's a part of lydia that wonders if this is stupid. if that after her last foray ( god, why did so many people care about her problem with peter ) with anonymous text and her problems and the network that maybe this was uncalled for, maybe she should just come clean and be herself and ask everyone if they were having problems like this. except, this is just as damning, isn't it? little miss lydia martin thinks killing peter hale will solve all her problems just like she thought doing what he wanted would solve them and yet, here she was, still sleep walking, still with nightmares and still— finding her mind in pieces she didn't know were still broken. ( they shouldn't have been why were they. ) she just wants to be normal again, she just wants to feel normal again. not like whatever this is. ]
When you get gangrene the treatment is to cut off the portion effected in order to try and save the rest of the tissue. Sometimes you have to amputate things, but that's not always what happens. You think that cutting it away is supposed to help. And it does sometimes. Other times you die anyway despite the efforts and it's bullshit.
That's morbid and— I shouldn't have started off with that. Whatever, you think something will make everything right again and then surprise the joke's on you, you still feel like a mess and it's— that's still not the point and is maudlin in ways that I don't do. I'm not even that intoxicated to justify it.
Original point of this, so you don't start laughing at the anonymous freak who can't shut up and get to the point. Has anyone been having sleeping related problems? I don't mean nightmares, because of course you're going to have nightmares here unless you're some person who thinks this is a walk in the park. But, sure, tell me about you special ones that aren't just consequences of the ship. What I mean is sleep walking. Waking up in places you don't remember falling asleep in. And I guess maybe another aspect of that is— have you had black out moments here. Where you're in one place, and then in another but you don't know how you got there. And if someone were to ask you, you couldn't answer what happened. You just were in one place and then suddenly you were in another and you don't remember even walking or running or whatever there.
God, I sound like a crazy person asking this. This is why I did this anonymously. No one wants to talk to a person after they sound crazy like this and I like talking to people for the most part. I don't feel like being shunned like that.
When you get gangrene the treatment is to cut off the portion effected in order to try and save the rest of the tissue. Sometimes you have to amputate things, but that's not always what happens. You think that cutting it away is supposed to help. And it does sometimes. Other times you die anyway despite the efforts and it's bullshit.
That's morbid and— I shouldn't have started off with that. Whatever, you think something will make everything right again and then surprise the joke's on you, you still feel like a mess and it's— that's still not the point and is maudlin in ways that I don't do. I'm not even that intoxicated to justify it.
Original point of this, so you don't start laughing at the anonymous freak who can't shut up and get to the point. Has anyone been having sleeping related problems? I don't mean nightmares, because of course you're going to have nightmares here unless you're some person who thinks this is a walk in the park. But, sure, tell me about you special ones that aren't just consequences of the ship. What I mean is sleep walking. Waking up in places you don't remember falling asleep in. And I guess maybe another aspect of that is— have you had black out moments here. Where you're in one place, and then in another but you don't know how you got there. And if someone were to ask you, you couldn't answer what happened. You just were in one place and then suddenly you were in another and you don't remember even walking or running or whatever there.
God, I sound like a crazy person asking this. This is why I did this anonymously. No one wants to talk to a person after they sound crazy like this and I like talking to people for the most part. I don't feel like being shunned like that.
SUDDENLY A LOCK
Controlling is a specific example.
GASP SHOCK AWE
Did you let go?
I KNOW IT'S JUST SO UNEXPECTED
I'm still human. Alive.
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Ghosts aren't always dead.
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[ please. ]
Rare cases. Walking dead.
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[ she thinks. that's what it sounds like. she can't hear past the filter unless she tries. ]
There are a lot on this ship. Countless.
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[ she doesn't tell everyone everything, they can't be the firm holds she needs. ]
Literally or figuratively.
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Both.
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....I really shouldn't have asked.
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[ that was so much fun ! C: ]
Are you surprised?
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Depending on whether or not you're who I think you are, not exactly.
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Three guesses and the first two don't count.
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Hi River.
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Hello, Lydia.
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You're really distinctive.
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[ river is in lesbians w/ lydia, news @ 11. ]
It's been said. With words less courteous than "distinctive." You have a theme.
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I'm pretty sure you dig all of me. Totally biased.
[ second only to allison as far as being in lesbians with her, true story. ]
They're dumbasses. Don't appreciate things like I do. :c on the theme though. That makes me feel boring.
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I plead the interplanetary peace agreement, Alliance statute 12-16a.
[ making shit up o'clock: the fifth amendment got bumped down a bit in the move. ]
Themes mean you're transcendent. Transcendental. Shakespeare carried across time and space because people will always love a good story. I appreciate you too.
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That's not fair, I come from somewhere where that doesn't exist.
[ thus i can't know it and go river there's no such thing. ]
People love a good story and a pretty face. You tell a story too much and it stops being good. You're flattering me.
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[ which ... might not actually be a good thing. ]
Not. Flattery is complicated and vaguely secondhand embarrassing. I just like to read.
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[ because knowledge is power and blah blah blah. i'm watching hercules, faith, don't judge me on the lack of insight. ]
Not that complicated. I will give you secondhand embarrassing. Would you still like it if it wasn't in text?
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[ shh only half-assed tags now. ]
Most of what I read isn't in text.
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[ not actually sorry for that. sarah's going to kill me the end. ]
Between the lines in better.
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[ we should start a fan club behind her back and see how long it takes her to notice. ]
Lines are cliched anyway.
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[ you and me co-presidents, y/n/cake? ]
We can totally do better than that.
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