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ataraxion2013-07-11 04:57 pm
mathematically) wrote in ataraxion2013-07-11 04:57 pm
fourth molotov cocktail made ☾ ( anonymous text )
[ there's a part of lydia that wonders if this is stupid. if that after her last foray ( god, why did so many people care about her problem with peter ) with anonymous text and her problems and the network that maybe this was uncalled for, maybe she should just come clean and be herself and ask everyone if they were having problems like this. except, this is just as damning, isn't it? little miss lydia martin thinks killing peter hale will solve all her problems just like she thought doing what he wanted would solve them and yet, here she was, still sleep walking, still with nightmares and still— finding her mind in pieces she didn't know were still broken. ( they shouldn't have been why were they. ) she just wants to be normal again, she just wants to feel normal again. not like whatever this is. ]
When you get gangrene the treatment is to cut off the portion effected in order to try and save the rest of the tissue. Sometimes you have to amputate things, but that's not always what happens. You think that cutting it away is supposed to help. And it does sometimes. Other times you die anyway despite the efforts and it's bullshit.
That's morbid and— I shouldn't have started off with that. Whatever, you think something will make everything right again and then surprise the joke's on you, you still feel like a mess and it's— that's still not the point and is maudlin in ways that I don't do. I'm not even that intoxicated to justify it.
Original point of this, so you don't start laughing at the anonymous freak who can't shut up and get to the point. Has anyone been having sleeping related problems? I don't mean nightmares, because of course you're going to have nightmares here unless you're some person who thinks this is a walk in the park. But, sure, tell me about you special ones that aren't just consequences of the ship. What I mean is sleep walking. Waking up in places you don't remember falling asleep in. And I guess maybe another aspect of that is— have you had black out moments here. Where you're in one place, and then in another but you don't know how you got there. And if someone were to ask you, you couldn't answer what happened. You just were in one place and then suddenly you were in another and you don't remember even walking or running or whatever there.
God, I sound like a crazy person asking this. This is why I did this anonymously. No one wants to talk to a person after they sound crazy like this and I like talking to people for the most part. I don't feel like being shunned like that.
When you get gangrene the treatment is to cut off the portion effected in order to try and save the rest of the tissue. Sometimes you have to amputate things, but that's not always what happens. You think that cutting it away is supposed to help. And it does sometimes. Other times you die anyway despite the efforts and it's bullshit.
That's morbid and— I shouldn't have started off with that. Whatever, you think something will make everything right again and then surprise the joke's on you, you still feel like a mess and it's— that's still not the point and is maudlin in ways that I don't do. I'm not even that intoxicated to justify it.
Original point of this, so you don't start laughing at the anonymous freak who can't shut up and get to the point. Has anyone been having sleeping related problems? I don't mean nightmares, because of course you're going to have nightmares here unless you're some person who thinks this is a walk in the park. But, sure, tell me about you special ones that aren't just consequences of the ship. What I mean is sleep walking. Waking up in places you don't remember falling asleep in. And I guess maybe another aspect of that is— have you had black out moments here. Where you're in one place, and then in another but you don't know how you got there. And if someone were to ask you, you couldn't answer what happened. You just were in one place and then suddenly you were in another and you don't remember even walking or running or whatever there.
God, I sound like a crazy person asking this. This is why I did this anonymously. No one wants to talk to a person after they sound crazy like this and I like talking to people for the most part. I don't feel like being shunned like that.
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Haven't yet met a therapist that didn't sprout bullshit at me, so I can't recommended them to you myself.
The more modern technology on the ship might be able to provide you with medication far more helpful than pills.
[ *ooc: he definitely had to have a therapist during rehabilitation because PTSD and all that shit, but i'm playing him like he
walked outwheeled off because he doesn't need the blabbering little shits, he can do this by himself. HEADCANON ALERT. ]anon text »
Then you get a point over everyone else. They're really easy to fool, you know. They put these little things in front of you and ask what you see. Answer what they want to hear, and hooray there's nothing wrong with you.
Like what. Managing to somehow turn off the part of my brain that says yes, running around the ship asleep sounds completely normal?
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[ and a mouthy one at that. why does this feel so familiar. :| ]
Yes, since that's the problem you're facing, for several different reasons that may or may not be applied to your condition. Heritable factors, in which case you'd need to speak to family. REM Behavior Disorder. Disassociation. High levels of anxiety. Post-traumatic stress disorder. Whatever the case is, there's medication for it, if you're willing to concede their validity and talk to someone whose expertise can help you.
In the end, it's really up to you if you want it cured or not.
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[ and let's be real here, the shoe was tailor made for her foot. ]
No one in my family has a history of this, trust me, I'd know with how liberal they are with airing out just about everything. As for the rest. All possible though post-traumatic stress disorder can manifest in other ways. That don't effect me sleep walking.
It's up to me. Honest question, does that whole you have a choice thing you just did ever actually work?
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[ he's not discounting the fact that he might have gotten it if he could actually walk. ]
If you're asking if it works 'as a whole', then that depends on the context of the conversation and who I'm speaking to, doesn't it?
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[ well enough. ha. girl can build molotov cocktails and shoot reasonably well with two weapons nowadays. well enough is a tiny understatement. ]
Nice evading of the question. Eight out of ten, I think. I meant in general. On average. Or are we going to side step that again?
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[ between mccoy and jim and spock, he has enough sass to last him for a lifetime (ha), lydia, pls. ]
In general, it works. One living proof's on this ship if you want to talk to him. But the latest project is an ongoing process. Not you, if you're sitting there staring at this message with a scowl on your face. [ himself. ] Maybe you'll get you know what comes out of it later.
text » i still do better than you. just don't ask amber.
[ are any of them actual teenage girls? pls pike, you don't know what you're in for. ]
Please, I don't scowl at messages like that. Honestly, if that was the attempt that's in-progress, I'm a little embarrassed for you. Who's the living proof?