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[ when the feed begins, luke is seated somewhere looking a little on the worse-for-wear side. dressed in the same all black he'd worn on the death star, his expression is pleasant enough, if exhausted. but he can't quite rest yet-- not until he has a few things sorted out.

he offers a smile that he hopes seems less sheepish than dignified, bobbing his head in a polite nod. ]

Hello. I'm Commander Luke Skywalker of the, ah, Alliance of Free Worlds-- but as our ranks mean very little in the grand scheme of things here, please feel free to call me Luke. I apologize, since I know we're all still settling in after the jump, but I had a request and an offer.

[ he lifts his right hand with a wince, pulling the glove back slightly to reveal the blaster damage to his prosthetic. he pulls it back down over the hole, then, fingers clicking as he curls them and lowers that hand. ]

As you can see, I have a prosthetic, and it's seen quite a bit of damage in the last few-- well, weeks, really, but it's at the point now where I can't ignore it. I was hoping someone on the ship had access to tools for delicate work that I could borrow. The sooner the better, in all honesty.

[ a brief pause, straightening slightly. ]

The offer is in regards to my place on this ship. I'm told that there are gaps in the manning in several departments, and I'm happy to offer my services. Skillset-wise, I'm most suited to security or engineering, I think, but I'm a quick study if I'm needed elsewhere.

[ he seems to consider that for a moment and, satisfied, offers a quick salute. ]

Skywalker out.

[ the feed ends. ]

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[a loss of a limb, as a jedi, ultimately equates to a battle gone wrong. the temple may teach every jedi the code, but that doesn't mean it's always possible to set aside or ignore the wounds gained in battle. especially the non-physical damage. it's a sentiment he's familiar with, and so it's one he knows he has no right to push his own opinions of on luke]

I understand. It means it's even more important that you get it fixed as soon as possible. [because as long as the physical damage is there as a reminder, it won't be nearly as easy to ignore all that comes with it.]

[ and how can he tell anakin that part of the reason he doesn't want him seeing it is because he's afraid of what he might sense? luke forgave his father a long time ago for what happened, but he can't just forget it so easily. he's not sure he'll ever forget it. ]

.. Yes. Ah, I've actually had several offers for tools, but do you mind compiling a few just in case I can't find what I need elsewhere?

Of course. And if there's anything you can't find, we have the means to make something.

[perhaps not him personally. but there are others aboard the ship with those skills. they can be sought out as needed.

there's a moment's pause then; one that should really lead to an end to the conversation. but as much as he knows he should be leaving it there, he can't bring himself to disconnect yet. jedi or not, family still matters to him too much to ignore.]

...what you said to Casey. [perhaps he may have been listening in to the other conversations a little.] If you wanted to join the crew, you wouldn't be crowding me.

[ his good hand clenches against his pantsleg, brows drawing together slightly, chest tight and uncomfortable. for a moment, it's a struggle even to speak, because he understands that longing better than most.

finally, he sucks in a breath, releasing it a little shakily. ]

Are you sure? I mean, there's still-- There's still a lot we need to talk about, and.. there are still things I need to tell you.

[ he wants to tell him. right here, right now. but he can't do that, it's not fair to anakin. it's not really fair to either of them. ]

I'm sure.

[the reply comes too quickly though. his uncertainty all too clear. there's another pause, his gaze slipping away from the screen as he tries to work out just what he really wants to say. he doesn't know what's safe anymore; what he can say without exposing any kind of a weakness. he's been reprimanded far too many times in his past for allowing his emotions to rule his actions, but this is one case where he isn't certain whether he'd be looked down on for it or not.

he nods, suddenly, eyes sliding back to the screen and a moment spent on locking the feed. luke, he can trust. he knows that. knows that anything said here won't be shared with the other jedi. the ones who hold ultimate control over his life on this ship.]

We're family, Luke. So if things need to be said, say them and we can deal with it as family. I don't want that to get in the way of any decisions you make during your time here.

[ that's what he's always wanted to hear, isn't it? that he's family. it's true that he has his sister, now, and he has han and chewie and the others, who've been like family, but this.. this is different.

he returns the nod slowly, mouth thinning as he meets blue eyes that are so very much like his own. ]

It's-- it may.. hurt you. And that's the last thing that I want to do. You know that, don't you? I would-- never--

[ he can't finish the sentence, throat closing up, squeezing his eyes shut as he breathes in slowly through his nose. ]

The fact you're worried about it is proof already.

[if luke didn't care, then he's sure that the truth would have already been shared back when they first met. they wouldn't still be awkwardly stepping around each other, trying to find the limits on their relationship. they wouldn't be having conversations like this at all.]

We have time here. [how long, he doesn't know. but they're both here now, which means they have the month, at the very least.]

I want to know who you are, and that is something I can only discover for myself by spending time with you. Whatever details you have to share- [he pauses once again, sentence stalled. he doesn't know how to put his thoughts in to words about this.]

I don't let other people tell me how I should think, and whatever happens in the future, it hasn't happened to me yet. I'm not the person you know, and you're still a stranger to me. [which, ultimately leads to his main point of all this.] I want to change that.

[ he takes a few moments to listen, to really take that in. he just.. can't get over how different anakin is at this age. this really is the man that obi-wan had cared so much for, isn't it? (what had made him change so drastically?)

he offers a shaky smile, running a hand back through his hair. ]

I'd-- like that a lot. I'd like to get to know you for who you are now. I don't-- know a great deal about you. About where you came from or-- if we have other family. Things like that.

Those are things that we should talk about in person.

[the network can't be trusted completely. not when the pirates were able to break through encrypt ions so easily. and as much as he knows that luke deserves answers to his questions, they aren't ones he wants shared with the rest of the ship. being born in to slavery isn't something he's proud of.]

I'll answer whatever questions you have though. [and undoubtedly end up asking a few of his own in return.]

No, I agree. It's not a conversation to be had over the network. [ he breathes a slightly shaky laugh, sitting back. ] I seem to be having a number of those, actually. I certainly didn't intend to upset things so much when I arrived.

[ he rubs the back of his neck, trying to ignore the pain and tension. medical. he really should take a trip to medical and see what they have to say about what's going on. ]

Maybe after I get a little rest, we could get together. I'd like to see what you do here, where you stay. I mean, if you'd be comfortable with that.

I spend most of my time in the shuttlebay and my room. I'm sure you'll be able to find me when you're ready.

[because that connection is strong; stronger than the one he shares with obi-wan, here. he has to believe that it feels the same in return.]

And when you are. [ eyes searching anakin's own, he offers a brief, uncertain smile. ] I'll see you again soon, then.

[ a breath of laughter, remembering something a little belatedly. ] --Say hello to Artoo for me.

[he just nods at the first part. whether or not he's ready at the time, he wants to be able to talk to luke. he's family, so his own issues will be set aside for however long they have to be.]

I will. Stay safe, Luke. And may the Force be with you.

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