ataraxion | ( 06 ) video ✵ standing waiting for the sandbox to blow sitting targets in the wild west show

[ for once, no one has to deal with faith and jaye's ridiculous mess of a room. instead the feed opens on faith's old room, which is dusty at worst. ]

Okay, so. Here's the thing-- no disrespect to fight club and all, I'm a fan. Sparring's cool for the little stuff, but it doesn't hit that real itch.

[ which would be killing, for all of you who don't speak ~~crazy~~ slayer. ]

So, here's what we got. Nerd wing overrun with those rat things, and looks like they're planning to just chill there for now. I'm thinking... fish with bitchin' teeth, barrel. Math's not all that hard.

Tyke already covered the general deal-- you wanna head out on your own good luck with that and mazel tov I guess, try not to bleed all over. Gets shit slippery, makes it a bitch for the rest of us. [ she shrugs one shoulder, rueful. it's true okay, geez. ] What I'm looking for is a hunting party. Fast and lean-- I got enough gear for me and maybe like three other people. Anybody who can bring their own shit to the table's welcome, but I get final call.

You wanna showboat and play hero, I got no use for you. And if you feel like you gotta prove your dick's the biggest skip the fight and just go ahead and whip it out right now, see what happens. Lonely in space, might get a couple takers for that. [ she grins, all teeth. ] All right, what else. You can't keep up, I don't need you. You can't take orders, I don't need you. You can't work nice with the other kids, I really don't need you. And no offense to the 101 crowd, but I'm not looking to babysit. You can't take care of yourself, don't need you either. Nothing personal.

I don't give a shit about attitude as long as you listen the fuck up, you stay low, and you don't get dead because that'd suck pretty hard for you. Plus then we gotta bring you back and if I bring back bodybags, boss lady's gonna get pissed and cut off my access to the party room and then I'm gonna get pissed. So no stupid moves, no dying, everybody's happy.

And if you wanna know why I'm in charge, other than 'cos I said so? [ she pans the camera over to the entirety of her weapons collection, a few clearly less high quality and more homemade blades joining the throng. ] Because they're my toys, and if you wanna play with them you have to ask nice.

[ she's such a delicate flower. ]

If you're down, we'll talk experience.

( ooc | depending on ic interest in actually going out, we can talk logs and/or handwaving etc. )

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That's my name.

[ LA LA LA LA LA SHE'S FINE ]

[ everyonekeepsdying...... ]

Fine. Have fun.

Dude, come on. What're you, pissed me at me now?

[ noooooooooooooooooooo come baaaaaack she wants to have her cake and eat it too ]

[ oh no, you're not dragging him into this. not when you'd rather be miss high and mighty, he's not dealing with it. he's already given up so much of everything. just... no. ]

You're just playing with your toys, right? Don't have anything to be mad about.

--man, you know where I'm at. We really gotta talk about it?

He messes me up inside, Angel. Always has.

So this is what you're doing about it?

I'm being careful about it, and not like they couldn't use taking down.

[ sulky, sulky, forever sulky. ]

[ avooiiiddaaaannce. ]

Then make sure you come back.

...we're not there, yet.

[ the least she can do is not pretend she doesn't know exactly what he means. ]

I'm just letting off steam, honest to... whatever. This isn't the cry for help, all right?

All right. I get it.

Dude, he just-- it's like he gets in my head, Angel. I forget shit around him, always have.

You think I don't understand that?

I think everybody's acting like I should be cool just cutting him off. I-- he doesn't even remember it all going down, he still thinks I'm his girl.

[ and she's not sure she isn't. ]

Life was easier when he was just dead.

People coming back to life doesn't usually help the situation. [ like darla. and cordelia..... sort of. #things he still can't talk about ]

I already told you, i'm not going to tell you what to do about it, not exactly my place to tell you what the right decision is. Just to try and think it through before you do anything.

[ because then you might have less to regret. if you're lucky. but when are they ever? ]

Edited (because ider canon or something idk) 2013-03-23 11:19 (UTC)

What if I don't wanna do anything? Why is it like-- 'yo, Faith, nothing's even happened but you have to pick a side and get ready to fight to death for it'. Can't I just-- have this, and let you and B do the hero thing?

[ there's a note of hopeless in her pleading-- she already knows the answer. ]

And then what happens after we do?

We go for pizza?

[ shut up. ]

[ face. meet palm. ]

If we have to do it without you, then we'll do it without you.

I'm not gonna fight for him, but you can't expect me to sign up to spit in his face. Not like that.

Which side you pick is entirely up to you-- if you even want to be on one at all. Already told you it was your choice, just make sure it's one you're willing to stand by when the dust settles.

You know I always got your back, I just--

I don't know if I'm up to this one, Angel.

Then what are you gonna do about it?

I was thinking... avoid the hell out dealing with it, maybe.

Yeah, I noticed.

You wanna sit down with me and the Boss and play therapist to all that shit, Angel? Because it's that or go it alone, and you're not gonna like what I get like when he pulls the lovey-dovey card around me long enough.

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