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[ ENCRYPTED 85% to REMUS LUPIN & SIRIUS BLACK ]

[ Raven sounds tired, but deliriously happy, too; ]

I know it's late and you're probably both exhausted and you might not get this until later but I wanted to tell you right away - I didn't shift. I'm not a werewolf! I was a little jittery for a while, like I felt.. feverish, and moody, but it might have just been nerves. It was probably nerves. I never felt out of control or anything like that, and I never changed. Not even a little bit. So, I think I'm immune to the bite. My mutation probably... I dunno! It fought it. Even if there's some magic to it, the- the curse, like you said, I guess maybe my body just.. rejected it. [ she pauses, and it's just so she can huff with disbelief ] It makes no sense, and I really don't understand it at all. But I had to let you guys know. I'm okay. I'm fine, I promise, I'm totally fine.

Now I just need to come up with some story as to where the scar came from.

And I hope your night wasn't too bad. Let me know if you need anything, okay?

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[ ENCRYPTED 60% to SCI DEPARTMENT ]
[ ( pings to medical & genetics, specifically, aaand open to jim kirk & spock too. ) ]

Last jump I received something in my locker that I think might be of interest some of you. ..Maybe. Actually, I'm not really sure if this is something more for the science labs or for you guys in the medbay. But, um. Either way! [ someone's a little nervous. she's only told Jesse about this, and she's not.. sure if it's going to be seen as a negative or positive yet ] Basically, back home, a friend of mine was trying to make a serum that would normalize my appearance. I would still be a shapeshifter, but I wouldn't have my blue natural form anymore. At the time, it was what I wanted. So he took a sample of my blood and tried to use my X-gene, my mutation ..whatever, to cook up this serum, right? But it didn't turn out right, it actually enhanced his abilities when he injected it. His mutation- He started out with mutated feet, and he's super smart, and really strong, but the serum ended up sending it all into overdrive. He's healthy! More than, actually. But the serum made him... transform. A little bit. [ A LOT ACTUALLY BUT WELL ] My point though, is that this serum can enhance abilities. And I haven't tried it yet, I haven't even shown anyone.

But I was thinking maybe you guys could take a look at it. See if you can make sense of it? Because if it can enhance my abilities, boost me up to full strength like I was back home instead of dulled down like I am here, I want to take it. But only if I know it'll work, and that it's safe.

Does that sound like something any of you would have some luck with?

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[ ENCRYPTED 60% to CHARLES XAVIER ]
[ and now that she's done with all that tired rambling, she just has one more message; ]

We are long overdue for a catch-up session, Professor X. I'm sure you won't get this til morning, but. Yeah. I know we always see each other around, but I miss you. So. Let's meet up.

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Thank god.

yeah. so no more worrying, okay? though i'm not sure what to do now. besides sleep forever.

Eat things that aren't raw hamburgers, for starters, and celebrate the fact you can.

i didn't *actually* eat raw anything, i just wanted to. still do, but whatever. how're you? was your night okay?

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[ gurl sort out your encryption ]

You mean he wasn't a shapeshifter and it made him shift?

And - sorry, I haven't been with medical long, you're going to have to fill me in. What do you mean by dulled down, exactly?

[ Because he doesn't know you but any talk of shapeshifting is talk he's going to stick his face in. ]

[ she's still leeearning. technology is hard. she doesn't even know how to cellphone yet. or gameboy. ]

It transformed him, yes. His mutation isn't like mine, he can't shift his appearance, but the serum changed him pretty drastically. But again, he's healthy, it didn't hurt him. In fact, I think he looks even better than he did before. And he's more powerful, too. The serum didn't do what it was supposed to, but it didn't cause a negative change, either.

Well, basically since I arrived on the ship, I haven't been as strong as I was back home. I can't hold a shift as long as I could back home, it takes a lot more effort. I've gotten used to it, but I'd rather... not feel like this. Not if I can fix it. And I know I'm not the only one.

[ He's a bit doubtful about the 'no negative change' thing, because that all sounds slightly subjective. He's stronger as a wolf, but that definitely doesn't make it better. ]

The change was purely physical, right? No psychological impact?

If it was supposed to force you to take on an appearance that wasn't your default, then that means it was probably messing with triggering a specific change instead of suppressing one - or if it was supposed to suppress something, his body could have responded to it like an anti-virus, caused the target mutation to fight back.

[ Wow just word vomit on her. Here, have some skepticism instead. ] What I'm saying is that the most likely outcome is that it'd lock you into a specific shift. I really doubt it's as simple or nice as it enhancing whatever baseline stats you've got.

Edited (shHHH i need to sleep) 2012-11-22 06:26 (UTC)

Right.

[ suppress.. what.. default.. uhhhmm?? ]

-- Well. [ science is weird. ] Hank told me that the serum was supposed to attack the mutated cells, normalize them without screwing up our abilities. But it just.. enhanced them instead.

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I could try to take a look at it, but... like, I'm still kind of a newb at the whole real chemistry thing.

There's no harm in just looking? And we could probably heckle my brother into helping out.

Sure, yeah. What could go wrong?

[Except, like, everything. On the bright side, Jesse's own power could probably nullify the effects, if any of them somehow were exposed to the stuff.]

as long as nobody injects it, it's harmless. I promise. I wouldn't ask anyone to handle it if I thought it would be dangerous.

[ dude josh has a point. and shhh official science business means she can do what she wants with this encryption. ]

A little bit? [ no see you have to be specific gurl. ]

Well, okay.

[ sigh ]

He started out with mutated feet, right? Like, um. I dunno. They were strong, almost more like hands ( but not in a creepy way ) and he could climb really well and run very fast. And then when he took the serum, he ended up enhancing that part of him, the- beast-like part of him. I guess. He has fur now, and fangs, he's stronger, faster. Maybe smarter too, I dunno. He's still Hank, he just looks more... true to his mutation.

Sort of like a monkey's hands, right? [ a beat and then: ] Did he ever have beast like qualities in his personality?

[ no this is an important question actually, she promises. ]

Yeah, actually. I guess they were.

[ she's not even all that weirded out by the question; ]

No. No, that's the thing. He was actually very soft spoken. Shy, calm. He was kind of afraid of his abilities in some ways, I think. Not just because they made him different, but because of how powerful they made him. He was more interested in developing his mind than anything else.

Why?

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Professor X... [ really ] We can meet somewhere. Or if you prefer for me to just come over to your room.

[ and about that serum ]

I could take a look at that, too.

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I'm going to keep using that name until you like it. Just so you know.

I was actually hoping you would. I was going to ask just you, but I didn't want anyone to think we're trying to hide something. And... I actually have two doses of it, but I'm only giving out one for people to look at. Just in case.

And I have no choice in this, do I?

[ well, w/e, he knows better than to protest. he has known you long enough, after all ]

Well, for most purposes, I am still hiding things, but just one -- that is the best way to do it. I don't know what it would do to someone who has abilities that come from a place that is not necessarily a mutation.