text | in spacetext no one can see you crying like a toddler.

[borndying]

Who cares if you die?

( feel free to interpret that however you please, denizens of the EXTREMELY POORLY NAMED tranquility! all possible interpretations are acceptable in harry's current state of complete emotional breakdown. he probably doesn't care if any of you die, for instance, and may bitterly resent you for having an actual answer to this question.

who cared when norman died? who really cared. people mourned the man who'd contributed so much, but that man was an idea. an image carefully cultivated. harry knew enough to know better, but even he wouldn't pretend to have known his father, and who's going to care when harry dies? just like norman did.

harry's legacy is just disappointment and isolation. his best friend is his only friend and he's pretty sure they're totally not friends any more, also. everything sucks and he broke a bottle when he got back to his room and he can't be bothered to clean it up, he's just going to sit here and hate all of you, publicly and violently, and

you know, by text, because he looks even shitter than usual. )

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[alsohawkeye]

My friends. Even if sometimes it seems like they're too busy caring about their own drama to bother.

[ Kate totally didn't write this with Harry's specific problem in mind no way what are you talking about. (It's still true, so there.) ]

[borndying]

You ever consider that if you're worried your friends "drama" would stop them from caring that you died that maybe they're shitty friends?

[borndying]

What the hell. We'll make that three for 'no one'.

[alsohawkeye]

I'm not actually worried. Just sometimes when you get wound up in your own head it's easy to convince yourself of things that you know rationally aren't true.

[borndying]

Good luck with that.

[alsohawkeye]

Would you rather be told that no one cares and life is meaningless and you might as well fling yourself out an airlock? Is that the point of this post?

[borndying]

I asked who cares if you die. Because I'm interested.

[alsohawkeye]

Yeah, of course you are. You care who cares about complete strangers? You want to compare lists.

[borndying]

Whoa, whoa, whoa: I said 'interested'. I couldn't possibly be expected to pretend I care.

[alsohawkeye]

Fine, interested. Why the interest unless it's a measuring contest you're hoping to lose?

[borndying]

Why does anybody ask anything around here? You want me to ask something important and relevant to our current SNAFU instead? Cool, let's all brace for eighty variations on "NO ONE KNOOOOWS WHY WOULD YOU EVEN AAAAASK HOW VERY DAAAARE", that doesn't sound boring as shit.

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[alsohawkeye]

[ Kate turns on voice purely so he can hear her laughing. It's not mocking, she's genuinely amused by that reply and it doesn't translate well into text. ] Okay, fair point.

[borndying]

( for reasons that will remain in narrative, at least for the time being, harry doesn't switch when she does. )

Or we could have a rousing rendition of "why would you even talk about that here it's obviously security's job" which is cool because I love hearing about the job no one seems to ever see them doing.

[alsohawkeye]

[ Is it because you're all blotchy from crying Harry ]

I'm trying to turn over a new leaf of talking less shit about Security this month just for a change of pace but "that's a stupid question, we answered it in seventeen turns ago in some incomprehensible guide there's no obvious access to" is another old favorite if you're into that.

[borndying]

( it's literally because he's a drink-soaked, tear-stained mess, yes. )

That's what youtube calls a challenge wank, I'm pretty sure.

[alsohawkeye]

I haven't spent enough time reading youtube comments to have heard it, unfortunately. I just know it makes me want to slap people. The amount of information about the ship that's locked up in heads here and not being shared until it's time to be like "oh no that's impossible because X."

[borndying]

( it's probably for the best that harry's insinuation he might leave a comment like 'it was hard, but I eventually got off' on one of edgeworth's announcement posts went unappreciated. to be honest. )

Yeah, I never got Petrelli's motivation to keep pushing. It's a shark thing, probably, I heard they die if they stop moving.

[alsohawkeye]

[ Yeah, that went straight over Kate's head. I'm a little sad about it now, to be honest. ]

You're content to just wait it out? Or is home really that shitty?

[borndying]

Doesn't matter either way.

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[alsohawkeye]

[ Kate switches back because why not. ]

Are you expecting to die imminently?

[borndying]

You wanna see the sores?

[alsohawkeye]

If you'd like a totally unqualified opinion, sure.

[borndying]

Don't worry about it, I know what they are.

( the picture he sends her is an up close and personal shot of the green-tinged open wound on the side of his neck, just above his collarbone; the skin around it is pale, blue-streaked, and the edges of it are angry-looking.

it's pretty gross, frankly. )

[alsohawkeye]

[ Switching back to text was a good idea. ]

That looks pretty bad. They really can't do anything about it in Medical?

[borndying]

What's medical gonna do that the entire resources of Oscorp couldn't do with more time to work on it than I've been alive?