text | in spacetext no one can see you crying like a toddler.

[borndying]

Who cares if you die?

( feel free to interpret that however you please, denizens of the EXTREMELY POORLY NAMED tranquility! all possible interpretations are acceptable in harry's current state of complete emotional breakdown. he probably doesn't care if any of you die, for instance, and may bitterly resent you for having an actual answer to this question.

who cared when norman died? who really cared. people mourned the man who'd contributed so much, but that man was an idea. an image carefully cultivated. harry knew enough to know better, but even he wouldn't pretend to have known his father, and who's going to care when harry dies? just like norman did.

harry's legacy is just disappointment and isolation. his best friend is his only friend and he's pretty sure they're totally not friends any more, also. everything sucks and he broke a bottle when he got back to his room and he can't be bothered to clean it up, he's just going to sit here and hate all of you, publicly and violently, and

you know, by text, because he looks even shitter than usual. )

Comments

[alsohawkeye]

So you're saying you might as well walk around with open sores now because you might have to again later?

[borndying]

You know what, how I deal with my inevitable fucking death is my business and you can go fuck yourself.

[alsohawkeye]

Spoiler: everyone's death is fucking inevitable. But don't let me stop you making your time as miserable as you can.

[borndying]

You should tour hospices, dying people love uppity bitches who don't know what they're talking about.

[alsohawkeye]

You should come with, they also love angsty assholes who refuse to explore the options available to them and pick fights with anybody who tries to help.

[borndying]

You're an idiot.

( he's too tired to argue the point, at this point - she's infuriated him, but it just seems so pointless to go into why. she doesn't understand and she doesn't give a fuck, either, he's just not the right kind of sad cripple, so fuck him, right? she didn't care before they talked and she won't care afterwards. they aren't friends. there's no point to trying to make her understand something she'll probably forget in a week, anyway.

he disconnects. )