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[skjalf]

[ there had been a point to her opening this channel. in light of the tragic losses they have suffered here, she has wanted to hold a dinner to celebrate the memory of those who have died and vanished. her mouth moves, but no words are produced. her face becomes deathly pale, her eyes wide and dilated as though in fear. but she has not seen a ghost. no, what she is seeing is something else entirely.

horrible images play before her, which only she might see. the blank look she sports is soon replaced with a one of complete and utter horror. ]

It is hot.. too hot to fight! The Dragon has come from across the sea to wage war against the Boar. Ah, the sun blinds the eyes!

[ she shudders, blinking her unfocused eyes. ] The field is an ocean of blood. I can barely hear over the din of it. The Dragon is swooping in, and his men roar behind him.

His Grace is brave to wear his crown to battle. He is winning.. standing alone in a field of dead, blood coursing over his boots. Ah, it is splendid and horrible!

[ once again, her face becomes a mask of pure terror, scrunching up while her eyes are too-wide for her face. ]

But here comes Lord Stanley! "For Tudor!" he calls. And His Grace has lost his horse. Treason, treason, treason!

[ and that seems to have snapped her out of it. still on camera, elizabeth exposes vulnerability for the first time to those aboard the ship at large, as she cannot control the violent shaking of her form or the tears that appear in her eyes. this is, unsurprisingly, a result of the nightmare she endured within the maze.

she cannot seem to speak for a long, long time. elizabeth covers her mouth with her hands to cover the fact that she is biting her lower lip so hard it is bleeding. and while she is able to finally get a few words out, it is muffled and quavering: ]

Forgive me.

[ she then abruptly ends the broadcast. ]

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[skjalf]

I.. I do wish it. You never trouble me.

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[inafadingcrown]

Then I will come. [And with that, she shuts off the device and goes to seek her out. It's not a terribly difficult feat, all things considered.]

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[skjalf]

[ she's still seated in the library upon her assigned level. very easy to find, indeed. when she enters, elizabeth's expression nearly crumples all over again, it is such a relief to see her. though she is also ashamed and aghast at how easily and powerfully she has lost control of herself. ]

Forgive me.

[ she whispers low, repeating what she has asked of many. ]

[inafadingcrown]

[Galadriel sits beside her, taking her hands in her own.] You have done nothing to require my forgiveness, pinig

[skjalf]

I have lost control, and.. [ and revealed her ability to all. not what she's ever wanted.

she squeezes galadriel's hands, willing the other woman's composure to calm her racing heart. ]

Can you see, what I saw?

[inafadingcrown]

A simple slip, which has caused harm to none, save perhaps yourself. I repeat, you have done nothing to merit an apology. [Galadriel is more worried about Elizabeth's state of mind than anything else. The trauma of unpleasant vision, only compounded by her fear at being discovered...]

I can, if that is what you wish. [She could search her future herself or she could simply search Elizabeth's memories. She will do neither without being certain that is what is asked of her.]

[skjalf]

[ many have said it, but this is only one of perhaps three people who may get through to her and succeed. and who is doing so. elizabeth releases a long, shaky exhale and leans her head upon galadriel's shoulder affectionately. ]

I must thank you for the support, Y--Galadriel. If you might, I would appreciate it.

I can barely make any sense of it.

[inafadingcrown]

You are always welcome to whatever support I can give. [She gives a soft smile- one that falters, just slightly as she continues.] It would be best, then, to see the matter as you did. I might look into your mind, if you will allow it, but I feel it only just to ask beforehand. [Especially given that Elizabeth has already had one psychic related shake-up today.]

[skjalf]

( slowly, she nods. though she reaches by habit for galadriel's hands, for comfort. )

Please, go ahead. With you here with me, I am much less afraid.

[inafadingcrown]

[She gives a quick nod and then focuses in on Elizabeth's eyes, her gaze shifting, becoming heavier and more piercing.

It's not a painful sensation, by any means, especially when Galadriel is taking great care to be gentle, as she is now. But nonetheless, there's something inherently discomforting about having another person in your mind, sorting through your thoughts and memories. It's a very vulnerable position. Fortunately, Galadriel has no intention of taking advantage of it and she keeps focused on the memory that she's looking for, paying the others no heed.

Still, if Elizabeth was not aware of the enormity of Galadriel's power, she certainly will be now. There's no hiding it under these circumstances; it can be felt.]

[skjalf]

( her eyes are wide while galadriel skims through her memories; and she can feel it. like a reader thumbing delicately through the pages of a much-cherished book. it is similar and yet entirely different from the enormous power she has felt with nuala. and it is profoundly disquieting to think that someone may play the entirety of her life before their eyes in mere moments and know her better than she knows herself.

thus, it is good that she has placed her trust in both women to have a care with that power. she does not think that she will be disappointed here. as odd as this is, in the very least, this is a woman whom in many ways she looks up to as she wishes she might to her own mother. there is a profound respect there, hand-in-hand alongside the trust to form a solid base for her to attempt to the best of her ability to squint her eyes and ignore the naked vulnerability of her mind and her heart in this moment.

there are few others to whom she would make such a gift. her gaze remains as steady as it might, and clear. she is not afraid. )

[inafadingcrown]

[It does not take Galadriel long to find what she needs and she watches the vision silently, attentively, absorbing all that she could. Finally, she pulls back, leaving Elizabeth's mind as abruptly as she entered it. She remains silent and still for a moment, allowing her gaze to settle back into the here-and-now, so that is is again looking at Elizabeth, rather than through her. Then, without a word, she gives her hand a reassuring squeeze.]

[skjalf]

( when it is over, there is a small sense of relief that her mind is her own once again; and that she is no longer alone in having witnessed this horror. she finds comfort in sharing this with someone who might very well have witnessed far worse things in her long life. someone who will understand and not suggest she use this skill for their benefit. as others have, and which she has publicly, at least, considered.

elizabeth sighs softly, and shivers while squeezing galadriel's hand tightly. she is safe; but her sisters and young cousins are not. and she fears for them. )

[inafadingcrown]

Take the time you need and then ask me what you will. I will wait.

[skjalf]

( there are a million and one questions she might ask. but there is one which is far more pressing than the rest. and, after taking some time to think on it, she asks on the heels of a shaky breath: )

How certain is this to occur as I have seen it? Ilde did tell me that my Uncle fell in battle.

The books in my world's future speak of it.

[inafadingcrown]

[That is the question, isn't it? And one that's rather difficult to answer.]

What has been the case with your visions in the past? Have they all come to be?

[skjalf]

( biting the inside of her cheek, elizabeth nods. )

When I.. when I saw the execution of my maternal uncle and older brother, it happened. And then I heard the dirge upon the river.

Melusina's sorrow. Whenever a member of my family perishes, we hear her wails across the water.

[inafadingcrown]

[She frowns.]

My visions, I know with certainty, are what may be, for I have seen much that has not come to pass, or was averted. But if you have not- perhaps your visions are more certain. [It's not what Elizabeth will want to hear, she knows, but she will not hide her thoughts.]

[skjalf]

I.. I see. ( she glances away, biting her lower lip. )

What would you propose I do, in that case? There will be none left to protect either myself or my sisters.

( she does not believe that her mother has any vested interest in anything other than her own desires at this point. )

[inafadingcrown]

I propose that you become your own protector- and protector of your sisters.

[skjalf]

Is such a thing permissible for a human woman in your realm, Your Grace? In mine, it is the province of men.

( she is intrigued, though, by the idea. )

[inafadingcrown]

I will admit, I know less than I aught of the customs of human realms; Lórien has been somewhat isolated in recent years, I fear.

[She pauses to think.] I suppose that depends entirely on what means you mean to use for your protection. Do we speak now of weapons, politics, or wit?

[skjalf]

The latter two moreso than the former. But all three, really. For a woman who excels in any or all of these is feared and looked down upon by men.

History in my land has done a great disservice to many remarkable women in the process.

[inafadingcrown]

[A chuckle] Oh, your people would despise me even before they learned of my gifts.

As for the humans of Middle Earth, I know that Númenor-that-was had queens as well as kings. And my granddaughter is set to marry the King of Gondor; she has been raised to wield all three.

[skjalf]

Sadly, I think that you are correct. Which is utter foolishness, but very few of us rail against the notion. The Church has been in supreme power of Europe at least since the fall of the Roman Empire.

But there have been some who have. ( she tilts her head, interested as well as wistful. )

Do you know that i envy her a little bit? I would so very much prefer to learn how to do all three; and I am learning the art of fighting with various weapons already.

I would not be a pretty bauble for a man to use for decoration. ( though she believes she has found one who would not, anyway. )

The truth is that I admire you very much. You are strong, but you are able to be gentle most times, as well. That is also how I would be.