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[majestyofthethrone]

How do you keep faith, here? How do you remember that God wants...how do you keep some kind of faith, keep from losing your mind with the things that happen to us?

My whole life I've heard God; all I had to do was listen and there He was, like music, like a symphony, and even when I was at the height of being terrified, there He was just working the notes of this great symphony. But then I followed that music, I followed Grigori, and I did something and now I can't hear anything, for the first time I've lost God and I just want Him back-

What if I did was unforgivable? What if saving another person isn't enough? What if what I did has stained my soul?

How do I keep believing that God loves me when I can't hear Him anymore?

How do you keep faith?

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[xerampelinae]

i meant it when i said he wanted you to hear something else
if you were no longer hearing his music

perhaps he doesn't want you to hear his forgiveness
not yet
not unless you can forgive yourself

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[majestyofthethrone]

That doesn't mean I'm going to tell you what I did.

But your point is taken.

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[xerampelinae]

i wasn't trying to find out
i was trying to help

good luck