ataraxion | ( 08 ) voice ✵ tell me what is it i should do when i'm swimming in the liquor only half way through

[ faith has exactly one concern in all this bullshit: empathy is not so much her gig. ]

So, seems like everybody's all about sharing and caring. And that's cool, whatever gets you off. Play Missed Connections on the Love Boat from hell all night long— have a blast, I don't give a shit.

But just in case anybody else gets any bright ideas about 'maybe we should talk about it'— [ gdi topher— ] maybe nothing, get me? You think you picked my brain, sucks to be you but don't blame me, I didn't sign up for this crap and I don't wanna know about it. I got zero desire to talk about whatever anybody thinks they saw, end of story.

[ because not-terribly-blissful ignorance is better than pity!!! or something. she's emotionally healthy. ]

And just so everybody clear, I'm talking the kind of leave me out of it I'll throw some muscle behind backing up. Keep it zipped and to yourself or I'll break it off, it's nothing I wanna look at.

[ and with the snick of a lighter and a mumbled curse then a long inhale, she's out. ]

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[ faith would stubbornly stick to voice for most of the ship. but: tyke.

when she responds, she looks about as awesome. ]

Looking to ignore it 'till it goes away mostly, boss. Leave the help to the brains.

[Taylor's head dips slightly, like she's nodding but can't get the energy to do it properly, or maybe doesn't want to jostle her head that much. She agrees; that's what she'd prefer to do, too (except something had compelled her to reply to this anyway).]

I meant the cigarette. It's not gonna help the headache.

Get the feeling not much will. Helps me calm down, so I can take the headache.

[ this is her worst nightmare, tyke, help. ]

Shit sucks. Like, hard.

Rather have some more fucked up monsters to kill.

[Which is probably the point, she thinks. The ship doesn't like to let them get comfortable with what kind of fucked up shit it puts them through.]

Been trying to take it out at the gym, got too sick for it.

Speaking my language there, boss.

[ like seriously she's craving a fight so bad. ]

I'd offer to play Slayer punching bag, but not feeling like getting smacked around right now myself.

[Drinking. That would be her next thought, has already crossed her mind several times since this memory switching started. But she hasn't touched a bottle since the month after Tommy left, and she'll be damned if she lets this crush her down into one so easily.]

Shit's leaving us sweet fuck all in options.

Feels just like home.

[ she sighs, low and frustrated. ]

Least it's somebody I can stand right now. [ that's her version of talking about it

yeah really ]

[There's something about that that surprises Taylor for a moment, her gaze dipping away. She doesn't want to talk about what she's seen, what Faith has seen. But part of her can't help but feel like Faith's got to still be missing pieces, if she's seen in Taylor's head and still thinks she's worth saying something like that about.]

Guess you got the quick and pretty tour.

If that was pretty, boss— nah, that wasn't pretty.

[ she shrugs, lifting one shoulder and gnawing on the inside of her cheek for a moment, trying to decide if she should add anything else. ]

Wasn't anything I never saw before. Guess you got the same, if you're not freaking on me.

They're not my memories to do anything with.

[Judge, she means. But no, there was nothing in there that would've led her to freak out on Faith.]

Just keep my mouth shut, keep them safe.

Same goes over here.

[ she pauses, raising a hand to jab a thumb into the skin between her eyebrows and rubbing hard, like that can shove the headache away. ]

...your friend who does ink still around?

[ holy segue batman. ]

Noah? Yeah.

[A very small, brief smile.]

Still finishing a piece on my back.

[So she'd be kind of fucked if he was gone.]

He up for taking somebody else on, you think?

Yeah. Think he's bored, half the time. You want his number?

Yeah, sure. Been meaning to get something new anyway.

[ this is the world's least anxious to get on with things pause, then— ] You see any of what went down the other month?

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[There's half a huff of a laugh.]

See isn't a good word for it. Got blinded by one of those fuckers for a while.

[And it had freaked her out more than she'd like to admit.]

But yeah, I was in it.

[ and that's it, it's totally her out. ]

Not really what I meant. Like, from my head.

[ and there the out went. ]

[She pauses, a slight frown, but then shakes her head.]

Didn't see anything from here.

Shit got... messy.

[ understatement. ]

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Do you wanna talk about it?

[It seems like they already are, but if they're gonna do it, they might as well make it in person. That'd be easier, Taylor thinks.]

Not even a little bit. Thinking maybe I should own up, though. With all this shit going down.

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