mansuetus: (☩ 17.)
lucrezia ☩ borgia ([personal profile] mansuetus) wrote in [community profile] ataraxion2012-10-04 11:29 pm

☩ 002. text

[ She has not slept. Shutting her eyes brought figures out of the darkness: a cardinal with eyes as crimson as his robes, her brother bleeding out of his own portrait and another figure who often visited her in her nightmares, a dead prince reaching out to her without being able to voice a word. She wept and screamed until she began to fear she might be going mad with grief.

Her mother once said that half of Lucrezia's illnesses come from her heart, not her body. Now, her heart is broken and she is certain she is ill. She reaches for her firefly; the second time she addresses the network could not have been more different than the first. ]


If one dreams of another who has died and he

in the dream, the one who died tries to speak and is unable, he is mute even though he spoke words as pretty as poetry when he lived

does that mean he passed without having said something he wished to?

does it come to imply that she who dreams of him has not listened well enough when he lived? that she had not been sweet enough of a friend?

was it her fault

Will he remain thus forever? desperate and mute in her dreams?

I do not think I can bear it, I

is there a physician abroad this ship? I fear I have fallen quite ill.
jurisimpudent: (i tried)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-05 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I cannot say. I would recommend that you speak, perhaps, with a psychiatrist.
jurisimpudent: (pouty)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-05 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ah, yes.]

Not precisely. It is someone who is an expert in understanding what someone feels, and someone who has likewise been trained to help them comprehend and do away with their uglier thoughts.
jurisimpudent: (Default)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-05 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hesitates slightly.]

There is, after a fashion. Her name is Jenna Sommers. She did not complete her training and never received her certification, but I myself have known her to be exceedingly wise - thanks both to her training and to her native character. She should be able to guide you.
jurisimpudent: (sad)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-06 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
I am still reading, madam.
jurisimpudent: (i tried)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-07 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I beg of you to think nothing of it. All I hope to see is that my attempts have been in some way successful.
jurisimpudent: (pouty)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-07 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[He furrows his brows at that, unsure, even nervous. He doesn't want her to feel beholden to him; he doesn't want, even, to take credit for something that is only his duty. But nor does he wish to be rude. Finally:]

It is nothing more than your due.
jurisimpudent: (i tried)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-08 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
If I might be bold to say so, you seem incapable of offering anything save kindness. All here hope for your continued health.
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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-09 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
Again, madam, forgive my forwardness, but I should be shocked indeed to see such a thing.
jurisimpudent: (contemptuous)

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[personal profile] jurisimpudent 2012-10-11 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Good.

Now: regarding medical attention.