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[darkholme]

Jump's coming up soon, huh?

[ this would be the pathetically boring intro to a transmission from a girl that's been hiding out the last couple weeks. well, not hiding. avoiding, maybe. too many bad things happening all at once never exactly results in a social Raven. but now she's here, a few things on her mind but nothing she's sure she wants to bring up to the ship at large. although; ]

I should probably think about this more before just asking everyone, but. I think after being here for so long, I'd really like to have a roommate. If anyone's up for that? Like, moving in after the next jump. Maybe. [ her mind immediately goes to Quinn, but she'll bring it up to her personally later on. ] I spend most of my time out and about on the ship, but having someone to hang out with regularly would be pretty groovy. It's just an idea. But if anybody's roommate-less, and would be into moving onto the first floor, um. Let me know! It could be fun.

Also, since I realize it's been a long time since I brought it up, and a lot of new people have come on board since then - Yes, I'm blue. No, I'm not an alien ( although I wouldn't be trying to hide it if I was ), I'm a shapeshifter. This is what I look like when I'm not hidden beneath a shift. No clue why, it's just a genetic. Thing. And I don't mind talking about it at all, either, so if you're curious about it, you can just ask. [ still a TINY bit nervous that someone might be afraid of her, but she's not about to make it obvious. instead she just smiles, then shuts off her feed. ]


[ PRIVATE to NEAL CAFFREY. ]
Seven. Seveeeehn. [ little bit sing-songy ] Dunno what else to say, Virtuoso, but I miss you and I wanted to send you a seven reminder since it's been entirely too long. So, seven. Squared. Cubed!

[ PRIVATE to JAKE ENGLISH & DIRK STRIDER. ]
Not getting cold feet, are we, boys? I was looking forward to finally meeting you two in person.

[ PRIVATE to ALEX SUMMERS ]
We should talk, I think. Maybe meet up, if you're up for it. [ smmmmaaalll smile ] I mean, I really miss Bozo. And feeling crummy isn't a good enough reason not to spend time with him here, I'm starting to finally get that.

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[darkholme]

Too good for my friends? Since when am I that narcissistic? [ SQUINT ]

Read between the lines, please. I meant you, not Bozo. I mean, I adore your cat, but I'm not contacting you so I can try and patch things up with him.

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[redhotsummers]

You do care a lot about how you look.

And are we friends?

Cause that's something I'd like to know. Been trying to figure it out. Erik leaves, and then suddenly you just don't really care.

[Yeah, he didn't really reach out, either, but he had some of his own really serious issues bubbling up recently.]

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[darkholme]

It's who I am. There isn't exactly any other way to explain why I look so different, it's easier to just do it here. Not everyone can hide their abilities.

[ always a sore spot ]

Alex. I'm not the one that keeps pushing away every time we do talk. I can't read you, I can't ever figure out what you want from me. And yeah, I blipped off the map when I found out Erik was gone, but can you blame me? It's not that I don't care, it's not. But he's the only person from home I've never had to wonder where we stand.

[ sigh, hrn. ]

I want to fix things, and I've wanted to fix things since you got here. Since I found out about how things went in Cuba. You can't pretend my being upset over Erik leaving is the reason why things are off between me and you right now, cause it's not. It didn't help, but it's not the point.

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[redhotsummers]

And not everyone's kill people accidentally. You can hide yours a hell of a lot better than mine.

That's always been the thing with you, Raven. Yeah, it sucks to hide, to think that people are going to think you are a freak, because you're blue.

The people that matter won't care.

My power, fucking slaughters people. I wasn't in jail because I was framed. I accidentally killed the only person who ever gave a shit about me when I was a kid.

So again, Raven, cry me a fucking river about you being blue. Suck it up and deal with it like the rest of us.

[He's been on edge for weeks, now, and it all comes pouring out, in text it's so much easier; he doesn't choke on the words, he can just spit them out.]

I want you to leave me alone. I don't want a damn thing from you, except for you to leave me alone.

[darkholme]

[ oh, God she just wants to get mad. she wants to lash out and throw things back at him and just yell and get angry and- it'd be fine, right? she knows his ability is dangerous, but he's not walking around with a sign that says "I'm lethal, ask me about it". but he'll never see things from her side, and she'll never see things from his side, and if he's going to be this angry about it, what else can she do? ]

If you're going to get mad at me or cut me out, at least have the nerve to do it to my face. Unless you're too scared you'll lose control. Afraid you'll kill me too? [ hnn, huff. ]

Except I don't think this has anything to do with me. You completely ignored the fact that I was telling you why I got quiet, something that had nothing to do with me not caring about you, just to get mad about my insecurity with my abilities. Why? Why are you picking this fight with me now?

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[redhotsummers]

[That was the wrong thing to say, Raven.]

Look, here is my face. And for the record, I wouldn't be surprised if the other version of me doesn't try to blast you into the next century for what you do on the beach.

[Because really, saying that he's worried about killing? He sets his jaw.]

Because really, when it comes down to it, Raven, it's all about you in one way or another.

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[darkholme]

For what, leaving with Erik? For making an impossible decision with no time to think it through. I haven't even been there yet, how can you honestly hold that against me? After all this time? [ because now she doesn't get it, she can't. It's been so long since then, and she's had time to sort through everything. but again, more things she can't explain, that Alex wouldn't just get. ]

How? Enlighten me.

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[redhotsummers]

I said he would. I got over that, Raven, cause I'm not going to judge you for something you haven't done, yet--even though you will do it at some point in time.

[He snorts.]

I would if I had the time, but I got better things to do.

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[darkholme]

[ HUFF. ]

Well, if you have better things...

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[redhotsummers]

I do.

[And he ends the feed quickly.]