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Is there anyone still dealing with, uh - bonding issues - since the jump?

I feel like if I start thinking I'm out of the woods, it's gonna bite me in the ass - but it's been a few days since I had the pleasure.

[ grudging sarcasm drips in her voice. the whole connection bit seems to have been fairly constant over the past few weeks - emma had barely gotten a breather, herself - but still, she's hesitant to go the optimistic route when everything's so overwhelmingly sucked for her lately. not even lately - since the curse broke, really. right now, she hasn't entirely ruled out a full-stop hemorrhage and vulcan mindmeld (or your appropriate, un-fourthwally sci-fi equivalent) being some fourth ring of empathy hell. ]

Maybe next time, we can just try trust falls, instead.

[ honestly, she's been trying to dodge coming to the ship's network about this at all for fear that anyone who'd gotten memories from her like irene had might crawl out of the woodwork and recognize her. but at this point, she wants answers more than she wants to hide from her past mistakes, and her present vulnerability. ]

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"Bonding issues," heh. Well, that's a way of putting it.

For me though, that's probably meant the other way 'round from what you mean it.

What do you mean by the other way around?

[ because she definitely meant it as she has deep-seated issues with bonding attempts, particularly given that this one was forced. emma doesn't like airing her shit. ever. in fact, the less people know about the crap she's been through, the better, because it means it's easier for her to just shove it in her past and not think about it. ]

There's someone I had a close bond with, where we come from. Even closer than this kind of mental link was. We could send our thoughts to one another whenever we wanted. We hoped...hoped this could go deeper. But there was no way to do it. Not that we found.

You're saying you - you wanted to be further in someone's head than you already were?

[ the incredulity is clear; emma doesn't have a single person she could ever wish that with. she doesn't have the ability to trust someone like that, to be entirely open like that. it's not even just 'not easy' for her. it's downright impossible, with all the baggage she carries around. even if she did miraculously trust someone enough, she'd still feel like shit dumping all of her life's bullshit on them. ]

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Bonding what?

There was this mental link ... thing going on. [ and it was a bit hard to miss, so she follows up with; ] You new?

Yes, I-

[He pauses and sighs]

I guess I am new.

I'm not exactly winning any veteran stars myself. But, it explains how you missed it. There was this ... Something was going on, everyone on the ship kept getting connected. Our minds were linked, or something - memories, emotions, it was all getting shared between people.

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Calling it clear on my end, but I'll pass on the trust falls. Had about all the trust I can handle.

And here I thought we were growing as people. [ her voice is dry, because she actually ... is 100% on his team as far as that goes. ]

Growing as people is overrated.

[ hi5 emma ]

You get through it all?

Still here, aren't I? [ consider that deflection a 'yes.' ] Good to know you are, too.

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Don't tell me there's some weird magic stuff going on here. Anything I need to worry about?

[Because seriously, as if being in space isn't weird enough. Throw her a bone, Emma - and laugh about the dog-puns later.]

Sounds like it's mostly cleared up. Whatever it is, I don't know that it's magic.

[Would be good if it was something else. Ruby's admittedly a little tired of magic.

Well. Except for the cloak. That's a piece of magic that'd come in real handy... soon.]

So then... are you alright?

[And yeah, she's worried.]

I'll be alright when I get off this ship and get my son back.

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Now you've jinxed it

Feel free to blame me if it kicks back up again, but it sounds like we're in the clear.

Didn't start til a week after the jump last time. Could be getting warmed up again, chewing through all the new arrivals

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I doubt we're in the clear just yet but I haven't experienced any of those links since the jump either.

Well, fingers crossed, then. I'd say in the meantime we could take the time to try and figure out what caused it in the first place, but I wouldn't even know where to start.

I wouldn't know either, honestly— things like that aren't even supposed to be possible, at least where I'm from but I do think we should look into it as well.

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Aye, but then we wouldn't get the pleasure of each others' darkest secrets, yeah?

[Desmond is equally NOT ENTHUSED about any of this, but if it's over, he'll do a fucking riverdance.]

Somehow, I think I'd survive without.

You and me both. I've a lot of awkward questions I could've done without this past month.

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