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[slipperysoul]

[ Angel isn’t excited to be facing the camera - especially considering this is his first ever appearance on the network, he doesn’t look like he’s doing this for the potential shits and giggles. Though it’s… not as if he ever looks like he’s having that good of a time, facing the entire network with a painfully somber expression, it mostly looks like he’s been wrangled into this confession of his. ]

I’m not gonna beat around the bush, at this point there isn’t any reason to. We’ve all got memories we’re batting around, and none of them are the feel good family picture kind. Unless you managed to get the one where I saved a puppy, in which case-- [ -- you didn’t get the one where he’s nailing them to objects. probably a good thing. back to the serious topic at hand. ]

Anything else you get from me? Isn’t gonna be warm and fuzzy, and I already know that a few of you got the worst of it. My past used to be the kind of thing I bragged about and it isn’t anymore-- it’s not who I am now but that doesn’t change the fact that it’s still mine. It’s still who I was, and if you want to know more? I’d rather have you ask than let it sit in the back of your head like it does in mine.

[ He knows you guys are out there, he knows. And he’s not going to hunt you down because that just makes it a hell of a lot creepier. But he will fold his arms over his chest and look put off by his own existence. ]

I don’t want anyone’s forgiveness, that’s not why i’m asking you to listen. I’m not trying to make anyone understand the things that I did. But if you want an explanation? If you ended up with memories from someone they called Angelus, spending time in Europe killing more people than you could count- torturing the rest just because you wanted to? Maybe getting cursed with a soul? [ this face he’s making means that he really could go on for awhile. ]

Then those were more than likely mine, and if you want to avoid it, that’s fine. So do I. I’ve done everything I can to try and redeem myself, and I can tell you i’m not the same person I used to be. That doesn’t mean you have to believe it. But you should hear it from me instead of wondering if there’s one more monster on board the ship.

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[sweetbreads]

How does one lose one's soul in the first place?

[ Hi, Faith gave him memories of you and you were a rude, rude man. ]

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[slipperysoul]

In my dimension, it happens when you're turned. [ Demonology is easy. He can spout this off like it's textbook. ]

When you're killed- you lose your human soul. Morals, feelings, it's all gone.

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[sweetbreads]

But you have a soul now, don't you? Cursed with one, you said. Returning to you morality after everything you've done--no wonder you call it a curse.

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[becauseihaveto]

[Abby stares back at him. No blinking, no breathing, no sign if she thinks he's wasting his time, full of crap, or if she feels bad for him. Nothing but staring, thanks.]

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[slipperysoul]

[ well. that's not awkward or anything. ]

Anything else you want to add?

[cargojet]

[ Forgive Nathan, these memories are very new and very alien and disturbing and he's not sure what to do with them. ]

I don't have your memories, but I have memories of you. You really...

Christ, I don't even know where to start. You want a chance to explain. Well then, give it a go. God knows I'm no bloody saint, but you? I don't know. Where do you even start?

[slipperysoul]

Usually starting at the beginning works, but then I'd still have a hundred and fifty years to get through. [ He's not joking, not really. Mostly he's just trying to be self-deprecating in the worst way possible. ]

Explaining what I did won't make that part any better.

[video] he is trying so hard to make it private

[doc_pompous]

[WAIT HANG ON

HANG ON HE'S GOT THIS

*~*~*CONTEXT CLUES*~*~*]

You were...there was a woman. I'm sorry, this is private, I don't need to know, I'm just...trying to get my bearings.

[video] privateish?! they fail so hard at technology omg

[slipperysoul]

[ Look, he wasn't handing over murderous imagery on a silver platter okay gosh. ]

Which woman? [ because that's a helpful approach.... ]

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[passe]

[ murdering people all over europe, whatever. the memories had only been remarkable for the fact that it took hal a while to realize why they weren't quite accurate. but the rest of it- ]

Cursed with a soul?

[ he doesn't sound put off by the rest of it, just intensely curious. ]

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[slipperysoul]

[ only on this ship would people's interest lie with the whole cursed with a soul thing, not the murdering everyone part. though, considering he's kind of used to it back home, angel only sounds like he's been over this part a million times before. ]

I made a lot of enemies.

[ which is what you get. for murdering people. obviously. ] We don't get to keep ours when we turn.

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[kutte]

You don't ask, I'm not gonna ask.

[ flatly, because dude don't be that guy. ]

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[slipperysoul]

Why would I ask?

[ considering it's none of his business. ]

[rixatus]

what's one more in a throng?

[slipperysoul]

[ HIS ONE AND ONLY POST AND YOU'VE GOTTA SHOW UP??? ]

Depends on the throng.

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[tinytactician]

I was under the distinct impression that the past didn't matter much, here.

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[slipperysoul]

That was the case up until this month.

[birchcore]

We all have a past we would rather forget. I don't have your memories, ser.

But I'm curious. You almost seem to be talking about two different people.

And how does having a soul become a curse?

[slipperysoul]

It's only a curse when you don't want it back.

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[20mentholkools]

Redemption is a kid's story.

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[slipperysoul]

Written by old guys.

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[unparental]

Should I say anything about the hairshirt, or just ask for the puppy story?

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[slipperysoul]

Only if you want the puppy story.

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[mansuetus]

You owe us, them, nothing, Angel.

[ Lucrezia had seen, she had; not blood and devastation but she had seen enough. she is the daughter of the Pope, true. her Church would name him a demon, surely. a beast to be destroyed and haunted by archangels and men alike.

He has her affection; and she is Lucrezia Borgia. she cares nothing as to what the cardinals would say. some are them are demons themselves, if she is to be honest. She loathes half of them. ]

You owe no explanation and no one has a right to demand such of you.

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[slipperysoul]

[ oh lucrezia. sometimes he's not entirely sure what to do with you, if only because he feels like the potential for breaking your heart is far too high. his protective instinct is already close to hitting its limits and this one of those moments where he wished he could impress upon how dangerous he still feels like he is. ]

No one has the right to demand one, which is why i'm offering it before it has to get that far.