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[allbloodyhail]

[ THIS IS FORWARD DATED spike would usually do this up on video but given the chaos and just how shitty he looks-- oh, yeah, if you haven't seen spike in a bit there's a reason for it. he looks like death. literally. skinny, sallow, low-energy. he's not even quipping like he should be. he's scarcely been here ninety days, but without blood, he's not healing like he should. these demons are giving him the go around and he doesn't like it. so have a raspy english voice, sounding much tireder than usual, which really everyone should expect given the theme around here. ]

I'll tell you all, I've seen an apocalypse or two in my day. And this? This is a bloody disaster.

Floor 22, Room 17. I've got some weapons and hiding spots, but that's not what I'm on about. I'll see you all in the trenches anyway. [ he takes a breath, he might be smoking. ]

...This blood situation, yeah? For us vamps. [ pauuuuuse ] It's wrong, and I'll tell you why it's wrong. This might be a bloody big ship, but it's going to start seeming a whole hell of a lot smaller if we keep handing over human to them--us. To us.

I don't drink human blood, it's a life choice. Let's use an analogy. Now, I talked to an expert on the subject so let's call 'blood' ... 'heroin.' And let's call bagged blood something they call 'methadone.' That's a drug used to bring someone down off scag, if you didn't know. But it doesn't work, and neither does this. Drinking it from a bag? Well. Just makes someone want the real thing.

Over on the Cyllene, guy name of Jayne told me to look for Dr. Tam up in the med bay? But I'm sorry, doc, and anyone else who might have a hand in that concoction -- I don't trust it. Don't ruddy well trust anyone with a beaker and I've got good reason.

There's got to be another way.

[ he hangs up rather abruptly, it takes a lot to get a rise out of him like this. it took the perfect cocktail of starvation, sleeplessness, nightmares and demons from his homeworld but now he's here and he's mad. and yeah, no that's basically it. ]

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[slipperysoul]

We do. [ that's it. partially, because he doesn't know the end of the story, and partially... because that's all there is to it. ]

At the end of it, she has to be there.

[allbloodyhail]

I was afraid you'd say that.

[slipperysoul]

When do either of us end up saying that it's actually gotten better?

to match u

[allbloodyhail]

Never. It's why we don't bloody talk to each other. [ and if he sounds bitter, he is. ]

ur a life ruiner

[slipperysoul]

[ he knows you're bitter, spike. and he's a fair bit more unhappy about it than he'd ever let on, but it's in there somewhere. all of it is. always. ]

You know that's not the only reason why.

i can't help it

[allbloodyhail]

[ this isn't a grimace except for how it is. ]

No, Angel. There are a hundred years of reasons, but that's no excuse and you know it.

okay true

[slipperysoul]

Fine- So what do you want to talk about then, Spike.

[ as in, he'll be a stubborn shit and only talk if you've got something to talk about. ]

[allbloodyhail]

[ in a rare sober moment, spike frowns, looking to his sire for -- something. guidance is too loose a term. ]

Tell me what happens.

[slipperysoul]

[ angel sighs because this is all mixed up and confusing and what happens is agonizing to tell. he knows what spike wants - he gets it - but that doesn't make it any less complicated. especially when it's between them. when it should be easy, but angel just doesn't know how to do it anymore. ]

With Illyria? With the Senior Partners? Or do you just want all of it.

[allbloodyhail]

[ he waved a hand, not particularly wanting to hear that name, but knowing it was unavoidable. ]

Just start talking, Peaches.

[slipperysoul]

I can't just- [ he wants to shake spike for that, because he doesn't know where to start; how much to admit to. ]

What's the very last thing you remember, Spike? Drogyn? Fred? I'll start talking when I know where i'm supposed to start. Don't want to cover the parts you already know about- won't leave anything out from the rest of it. [ for once he doesn't sound grumpy about it, just mildly subdued.

recounting all of this? seems like it should take years. ]

[allbloodyhail]

[ he swallowed, almost wanting to tell angel he changed his mind -- but even now, he can't stand to have the other vampire call his bluff. even when it's this. even when it's fred. ]

We just saw Drogyn, we were on our way back when -- [ i got sucked into an alternate dimension in space? yeah. that. ]

[slipperysoul]

When you showed up here. [ crap, he has to start this story all the way back there? ] Great.

How it actually goes? When we got back, Fred had already been taken over by Illyria. But we decided as a group that we'd try and get her soul back, despite the fact that the whole thing was predestined. As long as we found her soul, we could save her.

[allbloodyhail]

But that didn't happen.

[slipperysoul]

Her soul was destroyed.

[allbloodyhail]

[ he swallowed. ] Go on.

[slipperysoul]

And then she was stuck with us, Spike. Her world was gone, so she stayed in ours.

[ how much of this story are you going to make him tell... ]

[allbloodyhail]

Right. [ if that's all angel wants to say, he won't press it. ]

[slipperysoul]

[ DAMMIT. ]

Want me to keep going? [ this is like the bedtime story turned nightmare from hell. ]

And if the answer's yes, I should make you say please. [ y e p. ]

[allbloodyhail]

Dammit, Angel. [ he was just about to say no, but now he wants to hit you instead!! ] I get it alright. It sucks. Can't wait to be there with you.

[slipperysoul]

[ at least it's easier when spike's pissed off with him. that's what counts. ]

Yeah, well at least I don't have an end to the whole story. Even if you wanted to hear it.

[allbloodyhail]

There's never an end to our story, Peaches. That's the universe's last joke on the both of us.

[ he wants it to sound mad or even annoyed, but he can't dredge it up. it's just true. ]

[slipperysoul]

Right now it's the Senior Partners last great joke, but the universe has as much of a hand in it as anything else.

[allbloodyhail]

It's not just them. We're stuck with each other, as much as ever.

[slipperysoul]

I've noticed. Even with the rest of us- doesn't count in the same way.