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video; step three

[It seems ridiculous that she'd want to have something be on video when she looks the way she does, but so it goes. As it stands, you're greeted at an unusually early hour by a woman with mussed hair all wrapped up in her blanket with red eyes and a frown. She speaks shakily, obviously a bit bothered by whatever is going on.

And oddly enough, it has nothing to do with the strange occurrences going on on the ship. No, it's a more mundane thing.]

I shouldn't have the capacity for that, but... I think I had a dream. Not a good one. I woke up like this and my pillow was wet and my chest hurt and I'm completely disturbed right now.

This isn't supposed to happen. A moment used to feel like an eternity to me, but now I sleep and everything goes by so quickly. This time it was terrible. I feel terrible.

[She's all alone, and she hates being alone. She's used to a million people needing her every day.

Pathetically:]

Help.

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[And she peeks up again, looking somehow both completely innocent and dangerously fierce. Jai and Keyes thought she wouldn't do it. She'd spent that whole, long moment considering, calculating, long enougn for the Spartan to nudge her toward the conclusion they needed her to reach. And maybe she sounds a little off now, a little uncentered.]

I think I would. One million people, all in my hands. More, if the others hadn't died fighting. They needed me. I needed them. Well, you get the idea.

To think I almost hesitated. To think I actually processed the probability before acting. Does that make me reprehensible? That I weighed the options?

[ james just smiles, nods again. ]

Yeah. But I don't think hesitating is a bad thing. Looking at your options is usually considered smart.

I am smart, if nothing else.

[Yeah, she's considering him for a moment.]

I think I like you. You seem like a good person.

Well that's pretty obvious.

[ and he'll just...wait. she can consider him all she wants. he'll just sit there, and then smile a little sheepishly when she speaks again. ]

Yeah? [ it's what he goes for, sure, but he doesn't normally get told that. ]

[She taps her finger on the side of her nose secretively.]

I'm an excellent judge of character. After all, I'm used to politicians.

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[ yeah okay smile is still somehow growing. ]

Definitely not a politician. Can't stand the blokes, actually.

They're not so bad when you're smarter than they are!

[She seems genuinely delighted right now, by the way. He's charming and kind and she loves people who just... exude goodness.]

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That musn't have been hard for you, then, eh?

[ he's just glad she's obviously feeling better. ]

Though half the time I wonder if they have a brain at all.

[Even better and better, because even accidental flattery goes a long way.]

They do. It's whether or not they choose to use it...

[She pauses.] Have I kept you too long?

Debatable, yes, but it's hard to believe it's there at all at times.

[ he laughs, like that's a joke of some kind. ]

Not at all. 'd rather hear you're doing alright anyway.

[Hey, it's good for a laugh!]

I do thank you. From the bottom of my potentially nonexistent heart.

[ooc; would it be cool if she checked up on him with the whole not-sleeping plot? IC inbox or I can make a post?]

I'd argue that bit, but I'll take the thanks.

[ occ: of course! IC inbox would be great. james would wanna check in with her too c: ]

Good. I like being listened to.

[Shaking her head.]

Then I'll try to sleep again, I suppose.

Hopefully good dreams this time?

I can only hope so. If not... I might go make some gelatin.

[ that...well. james pauses a bit at that. ]

Gelatin?

[OH WAIT WHAT NO. She's wide awake again.]

You've never had any????

No I've had it. [ he has to hold back a little smile here. ] Just not normally something I hear people enjoy baking. Usually it's cookies, or brownies, or some kind of chocolatey something.

I wonder if I could bake. It isn't something I'd like to try when I'm not feeling well. Gelatin was the first thing I made, and it's pleasant, so I've been a creature of habit, so to speak.

That makes sense. How hard is it to make?

All it really takes is water and patience. Very simple.

Yeesh. Patience. Not my forté.

No? But you've been marvelously patient with me.

Wouldn't call this patience if I'm enjoying the conversation.

You're too kind. I appreciate that. It's a rare quality and sometimes a hindrance. I hope it isn't for you.