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[tumbleweeds]

[ There is white and red and black, bone and blood and rotting flesh, when the camera first blinks on. Some fiddling, dirty fingers tapping at the lens then pulling it back reveals that the rot is not a human passenger but bovine; the cow that has been on board since Strela, effectively smashed by the jump by all appearance, but rotted already -- rotted for months, by the look of it. (For a year, its owner will tell you, and forensic analysis will back up her story.)

More fiddling, those filthy fingers and long strands of dirty golden-blonde hair (falling, from the looks of things, coming out in chunks and joining the cow on the floor of the ship) covering the lens until Jaye can look into the screen properly. Once again, she looks like a mess. It's worse, this time. Worse physically and mentally, and it's easy to tell by how she interacts with the camera, slides her thumb up over the lens and bobs her head like a bird. It's almost like she can't quite remember what she's supposed to do. ]

I heard voices, [ she starts, voice a hoarse, scratchy mess. Unlike last time she doesn't try to save it, pushes on as if she's talking to herself and her dead cow and not anyone who's listening. ] Are you back? It's been so long. I didn't mean to leave -- I couldn't get there. I was so close and just like him, just couldn't get there. The halls just kept going and then the ship screamed and I had to change before I did, too.

[ She shifts onto her haunches, rocking back and forth, not looking at the camera -- looking around instead, taking in how things look with eyes that aren't the compound eyes of an insect. One hand moves up to move some hair behind an ear and the hair simply falls down in strands, leaving a patch of bare scalp behind on her head. ] It was red again. Red and angry, so angry, the whole time. I didn't mean to do it this time, I didn't -- but I figured it out. They're the same, aren't they? Exactly the same. Trickster and hero and villain all at once. "Fear not, I will help you."

[ There's a laugh, then a sob, then both at once. ]

Don't be mad. A year isn't forty. Just-Like-Creator took the flesh and threw it over the land, and there grew the tribes of men.

[ One hand reaches for the skull of the cow, for the rot covering it, and draws. :) ]

((ooc: Explanation over here!))

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[tumbleweeds]

On two legs?

[ She doesn't feel like they're hers at the moment. The first time she changed, the tail felt foreign. Now she feels like she needs two more pairs of legs and a set of wings. ]

It's been so long. I don't remember.

[ What was it like to live on this ship with the others? What was it like to be home and serve Coyote, to pine for her brother and to teach Kane? Everything's jumbled up now, spliced with red and blood and a smile. ]

[northerner]

[ he wants to ask her how long. he wants to ask a great number of things, but jaye is barely coherent. she clutches at grey wind as if he is the only thing to steady her. ]

You must see the doctors. Will you let me carry you?

[ what he's really asking is if she'd let go of grey wind and let him carry her. once he had hold of her she could reach the wolf, for grey wind had grown massive in the time spent aboard the ship, but robb wouldn't tear her away from him and risk upsetting her further. ]

[tumbleweeds]

Don't like doctors, [ she informs him, blinking up. Still, she loosens her grip on the direwolf, sliding her fingers through his fur until her hands fall on her lap. ]

Can we see Jenna? I like Jenna. She can help, right? Everything's wrong.

[ Wrong and lost and floating in the stardust. ]

[northerner]

[ she's light. robb swings her up into his arms without missing a beat, grey wind rising up at his side. ]

After. I'm sure she shall come to you after, if you wish it.

[tumbleweeds]

[ Up she goes, and human contact after so long means she's burrowing into him without thinking, all but clutching to him save for the hand that reaches for Grey Wind. ]

I'm glad Alayne's not here. It would hurt her.

[northerner]

[ it. robb doesn't know whether she means the state she's found herself in, or something else, whatever evils lie hidden in the ship. he grits his teeth, tightens his hold on her. ]

I'd not have let anything hurt her. And I'm a poor liegelord for allowing this to fall upon your shoulders.

[tumbleweeds]

[ Both? More? It all would have hurt Alayne-Sansa-sister-liege, whether Robb tried to stop it or not. There is only so much any of them can do. ]

Didn't know. Couldn't have helped it. [ She burrows into him a little more, almost like a child despite being a decade older. ] You came now.

[northerner]

Too late.

[ which is the point, he's always arriving too late to stop anything, but he hitches her a bit tighter. ]

Who have you spoken to? Do you need me to speak to anyone on your behalf?

[tumbleweeds]

Would have died, before.

[ Jaye rests her head on his shoulder, thinking. ]

Don't think so. Faith, maybe.

[northerner]

I'll speak with Faith.

[ ugh the things he does for you jaye faith is his least favorite. ]

You rest. Recover your health, I'll take care of all that's needed.

[tumbleweeds]

Thank you.

[ she knows :c ]

Will you visit?