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[mansuetus]

[ Behold, Lucrezia in pale pink dress and an elaborated braid in the first video broadcast since her arrival. By the looks of it, she is in one of the lounges, a few books in her lap. They look used, little notes scribbled at the edges of each page. She will read one. ]

I am, I confess, a sinner, but one who, far from weeping for her sins, weeps only for her lover; far from abhorring her crimes, longs only to add to them; and who, with a weakness unbecoming my state, please myself continually with the remembrance of past delights when it is impossible to renew them.

[ a pause. ]

Heloise and Abelard were truly doomed. But better doomed and loved than safe and lonely.



( Private to close CR and friends. )

I would ask something of you, if you please. It is a simple task, but important still.

Comments

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[tumbleweeds]

You can be happy when you're just sitting there, not really doing anything. Just happy. Right?

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[mansuetus]

I suppose. One could be content without doing much, yes.

[ she grins. ]

But one cannot have fun while doing nothing?

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[tumbleweeds]

Well yeah, but not always. Just like you could be having fun but not actually be happy, down at the core of things.

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[mansuetus]

One may enjoy a dance, feel wonderful and light for the duration of it but when the music fades, so would their joy.

[ she nods, a small movement of understand, of relating. ]

Happiness is more lasting.

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[tumbleweeds]

Yeah.

[ There's a small flicker of a smile, something sad. ]

That's why so many people have a hard time knowing if they're happy or not. They get confused.

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[mansuetus]

Perhaps at times it is enough to simply have fun even when one cannot be fully happy.

Do you think happiness is possible abroad this ship, Golden Jaye??

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[tumbleweeds]

Yeah. I mean, the ship does its best to make sure it isn't sometimes, but... there are plenty of people who had it shitty back home. It's better here for a lot of them.

If they can be happy here, then they should be, you know?

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[mansuetus]

If they can be happy here, they should. A small victory against the ship's attempt to ruin our joy.

You should be that, Golden Jaye. Happy.

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[tumbleweeds]

You should too, you know. No more counting sheep.

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[mansuetus]

[ she giggles, a bright sound as she shakes her head. ]

I hope not to count anything during - those times, here.

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[tumbleweeds]

And I hope to hear details.

[ Jaye get out of other people's sex lives, your own should be keeping you busy enough. ]

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[mansuetus]

Golden Jaye, that is scandalous to say - !

[ but she's laughing still. ]

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[tumbleweeds]

Well yeah, but still.

[ And so is she. ]