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[mansuetus]

[ Behold, Lucrezia in pale pink dress and an elaborated braid in the first video broadcast since her arrival. By the looks of it, she is in one of the lounges, a few books in her lap. They look used, little notes scribbled at the edges of each page. She will read one. ]

I am, I confess, a sinner, but one who, far from weeping for her sins, weeps only for her lover; far from abhorring her crimes, longs only to add to them; and who, with a weakness unbecoming my state, please myself continually with the remembrance of past delights when it is impossible to renew them.

[ a pause. ]

Heloise and Abelard were truly doomed. But better doomed and loved than safe and lonely.



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I would ask something of you, if you please. It is a simple task, but important still.

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[justamobster]

Everyone should know what it's like t'be loved, yeah?

How you holdin' up, kiddo?

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[mansuetus]

If they are fortunate, signore Ladon, then they must. I should think life would be a tad empty with no love to fill ones heart.

I am well. No complaint shall leave my lips today; and yourself? I had thought of you.

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[tumbleweeds]

Sinners have more fun anyway.

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[mansuetus]

The ever bold Golden Jaye.

[ but it is spoken with nothing but affection. ]

Can one not be virtuous and happy?

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[wolfinthesnow]

What task?

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[mansuetus]

To keep something for me. It is a small thing but I do not wish for it to remain with me.

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[jurisimpudent]

With respect, I think that quite depends.

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[mansuetus]

Shall you explain to me, Miles Edgeworth?

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[talkstoengines]

Is somethin' wrong? What d'you need?

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[mansuetus]

It is being taken care of, sweet Kaylee and so I am well and truly happy. I had - a burden that I wished to lift off of me but it is gone now.

[ not truly gone, there will always be the threat of Giovanni Sforza appearing on the ship; but it is a momentary relief. ]

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[hostage]

What's the matter?

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[mansuetus]

We spoke of feeling too much, Jesse Pinkman. I wish to rid myself of some of mine.

[ she cannot truly be rid of memories but objects that call them forth she can put away. ]

[logicunlocked]

[ He doesn't know the story she's referring to, but it stirs up uncomfortable feelings in his gut. Thinking of Carolina, the last time he spoke to her, and how he'd never been able--or quite willing--to go back. There was too much water under the bridge there, and too much at stake.

It brings to mind, too, discussions with Delta, and he clicks on the video response before he's taken much thought to what he's going to say. ]

I had a friend who used to say good and evil are merely human concepts.

[mansuetus]

And what do you think of it? God has created both good and evil, we are told and he is good while the devil is evil.I shall hear your own thoughts. I have never thought of it as such.

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[thenormalsquint]

'Tis better to loved and lost than not loved at all.

Ask me anything, hon.

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[mansuetus]

I shall ask for advice, Angela, if you shall humor me. The task is done and yet I feel -

[ a pause as she thinks of it. ]

Were I at Rome, I would perhaps confess; but the priests are not here to listen to the sins of Lucrezia Borgia.

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[backwardscompatible]

Anyone who'd say otherwise is not worth knowing.

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[mansuetus]

Have you ever known anyone to claim to opposite, beautiful River Song?

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[stimulations]

Arguably, the greatest love stories are always subject to tragedy at some point. But not all need to be great.

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[mansuetus]

Why is it so, then? Why not have a great beautiful love story to end in marriage and infants with rosy cheeks? Is it a concept that is too foreign, too perfect to exist?

Great loves - are they always doomed?

[northerner]

Doomed and loved.

[ was that not such an apt description of house stark? doomed, doomed, doomed but loving each other until the last breath. ]

Your verses grow sadder, my lady.

[mansuetus]

I would wish them not to be connected, love and doom.

[ she thinks of Cesare who, like Abelard, has lost his heart to a woman who promised herself to God. She remembers him vowing to find her, pursue this sin for he could not act otherwise. Perhaps all Borgia children were also, alas, bound to such impossible affairs. ]

Poets never write so beautifully of happiness, my lord. It displeases me, for their most wonderful words are forever tied to pain and heartache. The ship would think me without spirits.

[servant]

I'd be inclined to agree with that.

[mansuetus]

If I were to guess, I would indeed wager that you would agree with me.

[ She thinks of Lancelot and his Guinevere, of the Queen who would once marry Arthur Pendragon and she does not know what to make of it. Instead, she puts the knowledge aside. ]

Love is a painful thing, however beautiful.

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[doggedly]

There's always new delights to be made, y'know. Less weeping involved with that one.

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[mansuetus]

The romantics would say that such love as the one of Heloise and Abelard is either an eternal joy or an eternal misery, Sirius Black.

[certainproclivity]

Only if you haven't yet learned how to use loneliness and safety to your advantage, Miss Borgia.

[mansuetus]

Can loneliness become an advantage, signore? If it can then truly I am uneducated in the process. How does one use something sad as loneliness?

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[cocksauce]

Which one are you, doomed and loved, or safe and lonely? Or is there a totally different combination of words you'd use to describe yourself?

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[mansuetus]

I fear I am as loved and as doomed as Heloise was.

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[smallclothes]

"Better doomed and loved than safe and lonely?" Is that so?

Then perhaps those who allow themselves to be swayed by what is ultimately a meaningless and fleeting emotion then deserve the consequences that follow.

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[mansuetus]

Can one truly allow themselves to not fall in love, donna? From the readings, one usually does not have a choice in the matter.