Sixth Imprint ⚡ Video

[pitied]

[Claire's holding her imprint wedge in her left hand, staring at it for a moment before her other hand brushes over some brown curls.]

This place has got me thinking. I know there was someone offering to erase memories-- [And she has her own feelings on that.] But if everything you knew could be erased and you could simply hit 'restart' on your life, would you? If you could start again, forget what you know about this place, about the future you may or may not return to, would you?

[Not that she necessarily has the ability to. The imprint wedge is only a piece of the technology needed. But at least if anything happens to her, if she's damaged, she has this as a back up.]

But starting over could simply lead to the same conclusion. Or you would not be the person you are now, for better or for worse.

[Her face steels again, fingers edging over the wedge before she brings the hand into her lap. Would she want to forget? Truly? No. At least what has happened is real. She's experienced it. It has made her who she is in this moment, no matter her name or her programming.]

Then again, with the erasure of everything I know, it could also be a devolution. [Certainly Alpha would think so.]

This is simply me thinking out loud. With the abilities and things offered here, it simply got me thinking again on what truly makes us who we are.

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[redhotsummers]

That sounds philosophical.

[And a bit sad, really.]

...my former mentor turns into a violent psychopath, too. Apparently it's a thing.

[pitied]

A lot of it is. I changed the imprint when I found out. I changed the imprint with my experiences. I adapted it to everyday living. At what point did I stop becoming tech and becoming real? I don't know. But I did. Even if my programmer has a bias in telling me, I know he is right. Even if the first thirty plus years of my memory are false.

Something went wrong with them then. Alpha's original identity was already psychotic. Somehow the wipes never erased that. Interesting though. It begs the question of the existence of souls. Perhaps some people are just truly broken.

[redhotsummers]

It's what you have to work with now, though.

Suppose you have to make the most of it.

[A beat.]

...he had some bad things happen to him as a child. I think it was always in him after that, waiting to snap.

[It means it's in him, too. Which he knows. Is always conscious of.]

[pitied]

It is not always the easiest. To decide what I am doing based on code or based on my own choice.

Trauma can do that. It still resonates within us.

[redhotsummers]

I hope you figure it out.


Not all of us become psychos in the end.

[pitied]

So do I.

That is a comfort. Though knowing what I can become, on both extremes, is still worrying.

[redhotsummers]

Well knowing the worst means you can work for the best, I guess.

[pitied]

I am trying.

[redhotsummers]

All we got, most days.

[And it doesn't even work, most of the time. But what can you do. Got to keep pushing forward.]

[pitied]

And it is better than the alternative.

[redhotsummers]

Just barely.

[pitied]

Barely surviving is better than not at all.

[redhotsummers]

Agreed.


Name's Havok.

[pitied]

Claire Saunders.