voice.

[ex_striking429]

[ katniss has had a month of bored recovery after being seriously mutated by last month's illness. she's still embarrassed about the loss of most of her hair, and she isn't a big fan of texting, so this is voice, though she's just sitting on her bed, playing with the pearl she found in the pocket of her suit from home, rolling it between her fingers. it's late. she woke up screaming. she wonders if she should apologize to tyke, sometime, or if that's not something you bring up to your superior. ]

[ initially, she was going to ask someone to take the wedding dress out of her locker before the next jump, so she doesn't ever have to see it again, but instead all the frustration and restlessness and uselessness that's plagued her since her arrival on this ship coagulates into an angry ball. so when she presses play, she just asks one question, direct and simple and with a grit of fury to it that could be interpreted as either petulance or passion. ]

Why are we here?

[ because no matter what happens, no matter how many theories get floated, she still doesn't have an answer to that question. at least the Games had a clear end point, even if the goal was to kill every other person. ]

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[wolfchild]

[ between her duties aboard the ship, caring for three animals and running between her room and the forge on top of any surprises the day might throw at her, arya ends the days tired enough that she should drop off to sleep immediately. should. sometimes she's too exhausted to sleep.

arya has the volume on her comm turned low because there are four others in the room with her, all of them asleep. nymeria has her head pillowed on arya's thighs; glaurung's nose is pressed against arya's neck. she can feel every breath he exhales like a little puff of warm air against her skin. on the bed across from hers bran and summer sleep together.

maybe a pointless talk will help. her vision goes cross-eyed when she tries to focus on the keyboard so she gives up and opts for audio.

quietly ( tiredly ), ] You would get more answers asking in the morning.

[ as if there is true morning on the ship. but that may be what she means. ]

[ex_striking429]

I can wait for people to wake up.

[ it doesn't really bother her who responds, only that someone does. she's hoping for more than just a chorus of "we don't know". she wants to do something, but she also knows that the people who take action suffer the consequences. ]

And that didn't answer my question.

[borntorebel]

[Leia thinks long and hard before she responds. It's something she's thought about a lot in her own captivity.]

That's something that I'd like to know the answer to as well. I'm afraid that unless we find the original crew, the people responsible for abducting us, we may never know.

[ex_striking429]

[ she hates this answer, though she manages to sound abrupt instead of angry, because she knows it's not leia's fault. ]

No. There has to be an answer closer than that.

[voice]

[yardbird]

My guess? In all the time that I've spent here, I've gathered one thing.

Something... whatever it is... wants to keep us. [That's what he's heard it say. That's what he's felt it do. Between the complacency in spite of everything else that's happened to him here -- so many have gone, but he's still here.]

[voice]

[ex_striking429]

[ oh, that's interesting. ]

Something?

voice

[jurisimpudent]

[ That's the sort of question that's typically asked once someone is near the breaking point. It is not, of course, Edgeworth's duty or desire to quash emotionality; everyone is entitled to it. But he does consider it his duty to, at the very least, assess the mental state of those in Security, and to help them as best he's able to cope.

Not that he's really able.

Still, his voice is a little bit gentle when he speaks. ]

What has spurred that question, Ms. Everdeen?

voice

[ex_striking429]

[ what has spurred it? frustration, mostly, but she doesn't want to admit that. ]

I want to know. I want to do something.

[skjalf]

( it's late and she's tired; also, coincidentally having woken up screaming from nightmares of her own. but she thinks she knows the answer, as simple and unsettling as it is. )

We are the crew of this ship, as I have come to understand it. Whether we join a department or not. To work is generally expected.

Why, or where we are going, however—remains a mystery.

[ex_striking429]

That's it? Just to do our jobs?

[ it makes sense, but it also brings up more questions. ]

If we're supposed to work, why do terrible things keep happening?

[seidhr]

Ah, yes... one of the great mysteries of life.

[Hey Katniss, your helper is here. To be helpful. This time, he sounds much less like he recently swallowed a handful of glass.]

[ex_striking429]

Is it?

[ katniss comes, after all, from a world entirely and one hundred percent free of religion. she's never questioned her metaphysical existence. ]

Life on the ship, maybe.

voice;

[uncurse]

Practically or existentially speaking?

voice;

[ex_striking429]

Practically.

text;

[iceboxed]

[what was that about not liking text...?]

you're gonna end up with 100 different answers

text;

[ex_striking429]

[ ugh. ]

[ but she's not incapable. just a little more perfunctory. ]

Good.

voice.

[wiped]

I used to think it was a test. [ he still thinks it's a test. ] Something's testing us.

voice.

[ex_striking429]

Are you that boy from the jump?

[ because she remembers him telling her this. ]

You were wrong then, and you're wrong now.

[ sorry about how this is the only theory she will argue to death. ]

voice

[pushesback]

Someone told me it was a vacation. You don't sound like you're having much fun.

voice

[ex_striking429]

I've been in medbay for a couple of weeks now, I must have missed the opportunity to have fun.

voice;

[axeyou]

Don't you get tired of thinking like this?

[sorry at least one member of the Katniss Everdeen Less-Than-Fans-Club must be present for all posts sorry]

voice;

[ex_striking429]

[ good. ]

Tired of asking questions? Tired of wanting to know the whole truth instead of just resigning myself to what they're doing to us? Come on, Johanna.

[ likeL for real u were part of the mockingjay jailbreak too, don't even front. ]

[kutte]

Does it matter? It's not like anyone's showing us an exit.

[ex_striking429]

It does matter. The reason. If it's something we can fight against, or fulfill so they let us go. If there's even a "they" to let us go.

text, learn to use the voice to text feature katniss!!

[alsohawkeye]

Because the world isn't fair.

text,

[ex_striking429]

[ katniss is perfectly capable of typing a response. it just leaves her abrupt. ]

Less philosophically.

[the_other_eight]

Honestly, I don't think anyone really knows why.

[Katniss, why do you say the things she thinks?]

[ex_striking429]

[ a little dryly, now that her initial frustration has had time to temper. ]

That does seem to be the consensus.

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[spellmight]

Not the retirement I'd been looking forward to, that's what.

( oh, she has to be serious? she pulls a thoughtful face, and finally, shrugs. )

There's a lot of good theories here. It could even be as simple as entertainment.

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[ex_striking429]

Ours or someone else's?