ataraxion | second path • video

[Video, audio, he doesn't care, he just wants to tell... um... who was he trying to talk to? Somebody he knows well enough to launch into things this way. But his audience is going to be bigger, apparently.

His eyes are awfully out of focus for this while he's at it, unusually wide just in the effort to get past some on-off double vision. But registering a record light's on after a few seconds, he lets them fall shut.

A sleepless month is one thing. A sleepless month without his other half is another, and along with losing sight of how to make private messages, by now he's wholly exasperated with what all he's caught ear of lately, too. So venting he goes....]

Listen, I've been hearing it.... "who is it" and "why" and... "when"... when is it over. Nobody wants somebody in their head, huh. Or to be in some... others' head. But I miss it.

Some... ha - some cat was in my head like once like that, though, did you know? We hated each other... he probably still does... somewhere. [And proof he's that tired, he smiles a little, resting his head against a nice cool wall. Oh, those days seem awfully far off, and he doesn't know whether the past or present holds the lesser evil.]

But now I'm not hearing anybody! Not even who I want, and I hate it, this is not the way... it's supposed to be. That's what I want over. What I do hear, he's feeling bad. I hear that....

[He goes quiet for a bit. Is he running out of steam already?

Maybe not. So often he's woken up again just like this, with a snap of his eyes and a fold of his ears, why.... So far there's one reason for it he can identify, even while he's out of it.]

Something's wrong in those dreams they have... [And thus he's doubly restless, unable to do a thing about it.] I don't know how long it's been anymore... but they need to wake up.

[Who he's rambling about could not be cryptic to all of two people or so, but remember, he doesn't know what on earth's he's doing here. And they know so much... they could tell him something, can't they?]

Or can I sleep, too....