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[ The view is of a casually seated man, the comm filming him from a skewed angle on his desk. He never takes much care about how he records these things on the network.

He'd tried to ignore it, and he knew speaking up might not lead to anything—for all he knew everyone on the ship was going to have him singled out as a crazy man after he made this post. But he wasn't one to stay quiet, not over something like this. Not after the last couple of months. ]

Okay, this might sound weird, but well, you know. Not like this is the most normal place, or anything. You know how we all went through some of the same stuff for the last couple of months? Insomnia, and all that? Well, now I'm getting flashes—not dreams, 'cause I'm awake, and they're kind of too real...almost like... Well, it's hard to explain, okay.

Anyway, I'm wondering if anyone else has noticed something like that.

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That's a relief, I'd hate to think I've been singled out for some reason.

Whatever it is, like I told D, if they wanted to prove they can fuck with our mental processes they've done a good enough job of that.

Dude, if they were just trying to prove it, it would've been easy. This is more than just trying to make some kind of statement to us.

Fuck, man, right now, I don't even want to think about what that might mean.

Ignorance is bliss, huh? I guess in this case it kind of is, though. Not like we could do a goddamn thing about whatever's going on.

It's not bliss either, it's just status quo. I mean, I have to admit, I'm just exhausted after the last couple of months. I could use a break.

At least we get to sleep, now. You know, until some fucked-up dream happens to wake you up, or something like that. The other night, I was actually in bed all ready to sleep and then suddenly I had this really weird need to get up and go for a run. I mean, what the hell.

... Slept pretty good after that though, I gotta admit.

That doesn't sound too out of the ordinary to me. From the sounds of it though I guess you're not much of a jogger.

... The fuck's that supposed to mean.

I'm just saying you made it sound like something that doesn't usually happen to you. [ He shrugs. ] If it makes you feel any better I woke up from the jump and wanted to climb a tree. Weirdest fucking thing.

Yeah, well. Definitely not normal when I'm all ready to pass out, suddenly thinking I need to go run a couple laps. ... And yeah. That's pretty weird, too.