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010 ☀ video ☀ you'll learn things you never knew you never knew
[ There is white and red and black, bone and blood and rotting flesh, when the camera first blinks on. Some fiddling, dirty fingers tapping at the lens then pulling it back reveals that the rot is not a human passenger but bovine; the cow that has been on board since Strela, effectively smashed by the jump by all appearance, but rotted already -- rotted for months, by the look of it. (For a year, its owner will tell you, and forensic analysis will back up her story.)
More fiddling, those filthy fingers and long strands of dirty golden-blonde hair (falling, from the looks of things, coming out in chunks and joining the cow on the floor of the ship) covering the lens until Jaye can look into the screen properly. Once again, she looks like a mess. It's worse, this time. Worse physically and mentally, and it's easy to tell by how she interacts with the camera, slides her thumb up over the lens and bobs her head like a bird. It's almost like she can't quite remember what she's supposed to do. ]
I heard voices, [ she starts, voice a hoarse, scratchy mess. Unlike last time she doesn't try to save it, pushes on as if she's talking to herself and her dead cow and not anyone who's listening. ] Are you back? It's been so long. I didn't mean to leave -- I couldn't get there. I was so close and just like him, just couldn't get there. The halls just kept going and then the ship screamed and I had to change before I did, too.
[ She shifts onto her haunches, rocking back and forth, not looking at the camera -- looking around instead, taking in how things look with eyes that aren't the compound eyes of an insect. One hand moves up to move some hair behind an ear and the hair simply falls down in strands, leaving a patch of bare scalp behind on her head. ] It was red again. Red and angry, so angry, the whole time. I didn't mean to do it this time, I didn't -- but I figured it out. They're the same, aren't they? Exactly the same. Trickster and hero and villain all at once. "Fear not, I will help you."
[ There's a laugh, then a sob, then both at once. ]
Don't be mad. A year isn't forty. Just-Like-Creator took the flesh and threw it over the land, and there grew the tribes of men.
[ One hand reaches for the skull of the cow, for the rot covering it, and draws. :) ]
((ooc: Explanation over here!))
More fiddling, those filthy fingers and long strands of dirty golden-blonde hair (falling, from the looks of things, coming out in chunks and joining the cow on the floor of the ship) covering the lens until Jaye can look into the screen properly. Once again, she looks like a mess. It's worse, this time. Worse physically and mentally, and it's easy to tell by how she interacts with the camera, slides her thumb up over the lens and bobs her head like a bird. It's almost like she can't quite remember what she's supposed to do. ]
I heard voices, [ she starts, voice a hoarse, scratchy mess. Unlike last time she doesn't try to save it, pushes on as if she's talking to herself and her dead cow and not anyone who's listening. ] Are you back? It's been so long. I didn't mean to leave -- I couldn't get there. I was so close and just like him, just couldn't get there. The halls just kept going and then the ship screamed and I had to change before I did, too.
[ She shifts onto her haunches, rocking back and forth, not looking at the camera -- looking around instead, taking in how things look with eyes that aren't the compound eyes of an insect. One hand moves up to move some hair behind an ear and the hair simply falls down in strands, leaving a patch of bare scalp behind on her head. ] It was red again. Red and angry, so angry, the whole time. I didn't mean to do it this time, I didn't -- but I figured it out. They're the same, aren't they? Exactly the same. Trickster and hero and villain all at once. "Fear not, I will help you."
[ There's a laugh, then a sob, then both at once. ]
Don't be mad. A year isn't forty. Just-Like-Creator took the flesh and threw it over the land, and there grew the tribes of men.
[ One hand reaches for the skull of the cow, for the rot covering it, and draws. :) ]
((ooc: Explanation over here!))
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Not right, not right.
[ One hand goes to run through her hair, only for it to fall out. ]
Couldn't get to the couches. Ship wouldn't let me.
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You this loopy the last time you sat out?
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Castiel helped, last time. He won't now, will he?
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No wonder you've taken a page out of the extra weird. [ dayum gurl. ] Should probably visit the medbay, and uh, leave the... whatever that used to be. [ you know, the cow. ]
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[ Jaye pats the rotting mess of flesh at her side, then, suddenly, clearly: ]
I don't like doctors, Dean.
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Don't think most of us do, Jaye. Kick 'em if they get too prod happy.
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Will. They'll let me sleep then.
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That's what you want? To sleep? Guess I can't blame you. Still... I dunno, try to be helpful, too. I mean, only if they play nice.
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Would you?
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Uh... what, sleep? Sounds like I've slept enough, if it's been a year. [ still not okay with that fact tbh.
beat. time for a dumb question he already figures the answer to. ] You gonna be okay? 'Cause if you need anything-- I guess I can help.
[ why he asks and offers considering their past is beyond him but oh well. ]
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[ It's okay Dean when she's lucid you can giggle about it then. ]
Okay? Don't know. Different now, changed -- wrong, when you all woke up. [ There's a pause as she worries her lower lip between her teeth. ] But... I [ and that's "I", that's a pronoun and that's important ] wouldn't mind company, later.
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[ he's a little surprised, but then, this whole conversation is surprising. ]
Later, then. Sure. [ bc why the hell not. ]
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[ She certainly didn't notice anything pointing to number 19, if that's what Dean's asking. ]
Can tell me if I should be nice to the doctors then, [ she decides, smiling a little. ]
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Guess so. Won't be smugglin' you outta there no matter what though.
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[ who knows one of them could try to eat her or something and then you'd be morally obligated, Dean ]
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[ he'll cut the feed there... and drag his butt to see her at some point. ]