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[majestyofthethrone]

We don't all know each other, do we? We hoard so many secrets, because it feels safer, it feels quiet and better if we just don't give into what we want to say.

I don't say a lot. I can't. I lost the ability to speak three weeks after I turned fifteen. My mother thought it was for attention, she thought it was because I was being dramatic. I think it's the opposite of dramatic. No more voice. My voice flew away.

Everyone keeps asking for stories but I think what people really want is to learn about each other. I don't have a lot of stories.

My name is Seraphim. I've been here a year. I'm seventeen. I'm a twin. I don't speak. I don't know how to be alone, but I spend a lot of my time alone. I had a boyfriend, once, who used to call me little dove, and I think I loved the pet name more than I loved him. I play the piano and the violin. I hate going to temple, and I hate church even more. I tried to use math to prove that my brother will be alone for the rest of his life. I miss my mask.

This is the bravest thing I've ever done.

[Encrypted to Medical]

I have a bottle of drugs - they're anti-psychotics, I don't need them, I'm not crazy, I think you should probably take them from me.

Comments

[text]

[mayormaynot]

Isn't it just. This was just great to read.

[text]

[majestyofthethrone]

Thank you.

Although - do you mean, brave?

text.

[incubo]

braverys overrated anyway
not what keeps you alive

text.

[majestyofthethrone]

I don't think I would say overrated. But maybe rarer than people would like.

[foundafamily]

Sorry about your voice. That really sucks.

[It's hard to express sympathy adequately through text, and he's curious anyway, so he adds:]

You play the piano? My friend's wife does too. They used to have her play back before the talkies, for the silent movies. What kinds of stuff can you play?

[majestyofthethrone]

I play whatever I want. A lot of classical. Some original things, too.

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[doggedly]

[There's more important things here, but let's start off with:]

little dove
really

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[majestyofthethrone]

Yes. There's nothing wrong with that, it's old-fashioned.

voice.

[deprecate]

Erm. Wow.

[ she's got more balls than him, is for sure. he could never straight-faced list out the facts of his life like that to the whole ship. ]

Nice to know you, and all. D'you really hate going to church?

permatext!

[majestyofthethrone]

Yes.

I don't think it helps you know God.

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[toomuchtenacity]

You don't know how to be alone?

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[majestyofthethrone]

Why is that a surprise?

[thebreakingwave]

Hi, my name is Harry. I'm eighteen. I'm a wizard.

There's nothing I love more than being able to fly and I really miss that I can't do it here. I don't play an instrument or really do much in the way of hobbies. I haven't been to church since I was ten. I'm not all that interesting and that's fine.

[majestyofthethrone]

If you say you're a wizard, I don't think you can say you're not all that interesting.

[hallowedqueen]

Little dove. That's a cute name.

You know, there are other reasons why people keep secrets.

[majestyofthethrone]

Thank you.

I know. But I think it's been the reason I keep secrets. Things that don't have to be.

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[stimulations]

How did you manage with it? Suddenly not being able to talk.

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[majestyofthethrone]

At the beginning? Not very well. My friend Nate finally bought me an old slate I could write on.

[logicunlocked]

I have trouble with the alone thing, too, believe me. Is your twin here too?

[majestyofthethrone]

No. He's home.

T E X T;

[constructum]

Why do you miss your mask?

[ because they only brought out pain she thought? ]

T E X T;

[majestyofthethrone]

Don't you miss yours?

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[skindeep]

What was your twin's name?

permatext

[majestyofthethrone]

Is.

His name is Grigori.

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[bailedontheempire]

[There are things he will never say. Especially not with the people here.]

I admire your effort.

I'm Bail. I'm a member of the Galactic Senate. I call my wife my dove, because it's a lovely petname. We have a three year old daughter who is the light of our lives.

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[majestyofthethrone]

Hello.

Are you used to spaceships?

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[unsoldiered]

yknow, I don't much like churches either.

well, I guess more before.

the one here's not so bad.

[There's a pause.]

secrets have been my biggest thing, I guess. why depress people with all my horrible crap, when we're already got so much to deal with?

[Heather knew some. Enough that he probably worries her enough. Murphy knows way too much — but in a way, he's glad to have someone who knew the truth. And who saw him drag himself by the shoelaces out of that wreck he called his psyche.

Even if he's still fixing it, anyway.]

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[majestyofthethrone]

That's a good point, too.

[yardbird]

Haven't been to church in a long time, myself. Can't say that I blame you. [Religious or not, Murphy has a very bitter relationship with his God. Hard to have a happy faith when you feel like He's let you down so bad.]

I've never really considered what I have secrets - I just don't go around telling people about myself unless they ask for it. If I wanted somebody to listen to my bullshit, I'd seek a therapist.

Not that THAT ever did me any good, so take that however you will.

[majestyofthethrone]

I go to the services here, sometimes. But lately it's left me with a sour taste in my mouth.

There's only - what, one therapist here? So I don't even know how much that would help.

medical encryption; i'm totally not late with this okay.

[hypospray]

Mind telling me why you think we should take them from you?

: medical encryption; you're FASHIONABLE there's a difference

[majestyofthethrone]

Well, it's medicine, maybe someone else might need them at some point, or you can do something with it, I don't know. Isn't medicine supposed to be handled by doctors?