ataraxion | one ➠ voice

Been here almost three months now, and I keep coming back to the same conclusion. Almost none you get it. And by almost, I don't mean some, I mean one, and maybe that's even pushing it.

[ As much as he considered taking the opportunity to full on shout at his comm device in video, Peter still can't find it within himself to splash his face on the network. Especially not right now, when he's busy splitting from any idea of reality. It doesn't really help matters that he's aware this he's bound to be in disagreement with... oh, maybe everyone? You don't exactly get to tell people they don't exist and expect them to like you.

Now, it's time for a reality check. For everyone else, mind, not him. ]

This isn't real. It's never going to be real. I don't even know how many of you are real, but nobody really likes hearing that they might not exist so we'll just stick with the basics.

[ Does it sound like he's being condescending? That's because he is. And he doesn't actually care all that much anymore about potentially hurting someone's feelings. ]

I don't care if you've got reasons, I don't care if you've got explanations. Everyone comes up with some way to convince themselves that what they're stuck in is actually reality. Give someone too much time and something they can't pick apart and eventually they'll tell themselves whatever they have to, just to make it all make sense.

But it doesn't. It's not going to.

And before you even ask, no, I don't think it's a nightmare or a dream. Or even a hallucination. So no, I don't need to get shipped off to the psych department to get my head fixed. [ He's particularly growly about that one. ] It's a construct. It's supposed to look real, and unless you've been in one, I wouldn't expect you to know the difference. Looks real, feels real, it's supposed to make you think it's real.

And fuck, if this one's working just a little too damn well.

You won't believe me, i've already got that down. Nathan's got some of you wrapped around his finger, I already know that much, and I already know what he thinks about all this. But I know a different Nathan, and I know one that'd do things to your brain that you wouldn't believe. Doesn't get any better after that. You don't get fixed.

You get his public service announcements and now you're getting mine.

I don't think this bullshit is real, and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon.

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No, so what. Like, who gives a shit?

Apparently not you.

Wow. Great observation. You're the star of the class, aren't you? Anyway, why do you even think this isn't real, if it seems completely real in every possible way?

If you don't care, gotta wonder why you keep asking questions. [ Just... kind of amused, here. Sardonically. ]

Ugh. Okay, look. If a fake world or a real world seem the same in every way, then I don't care which it is. But apparently there's some difference that you think you can detect that makes you think it's one or the other, and I want to know why you think it's virtual. Do I have to fucking talk slower, is that it? Would that help? Or will you just answer the goddamn question?

I got your question. Just don't see the point in answering it when you don't give a shit what the answer's gonna be.

But if you really want to know so badly, then maybe it's the fact that some of the shit that happens here just doesn't happen. And if that's not good enough for you, then I guess you'll just have to deal with it.