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( 001 ) A U D I O → i dreamed i was missing, you were so scared

[ If Alice were so panicked right now, this would be a private feed, but she's freaking out too much to bother. Her breathing sounds a bit labored, too, and combined with the tone of her voice, it's probably fairly clear that she's running right now. ] Hatter, if you hear this, call me back immediately. Please. I need to know-- [ Her voice catches a little and there's a pause before she continues. ]

I couldn't find you and I need to know you made it through the jump. I saw that guy's - Hotspur's - post and saw what happened to him; I need to know you're okay. Oh, god, please--

[ The feed ends there. ]

ooc: backdated to about half an hour/forty-five minutes after the latest jump

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[ oh, christ. he hears you, loud and clear—and he'd just heard about hotspur too, didn't know him, but—what a way to go. nobody deserves that kind of death. he tries to be calm and placating, voice low; alice doesn't sound in the best way. he's not exactly good with hysterical women. or hysterical... anybody, but— ]

Alice, Alice, it's okay, I'm fine. Are you—?

[ The breath she lets out this time, though labored, is more relief than anything. ] Yeah, yeah, I'm alright. I just--

Where were you? I looked and I couldn't find you.

I went up to the gardens. Pretty much immediately. I didn't see the network until— [ after. grimace. ] Didn't mean to worry you.

[ didn't mean to worry you? he shouldn't care about worrying her. ]

[ And she shouldn't be worry, yet here they are. ]

It's okay. I'm just glad you're alright. [ She's not moving anymore, that much should be obvious by how much calmer she sounds, though she still feels like she might throw up. ] We should work on some kind of system or something, just so we know the other's safe after the jumps or...

Well, just so we know the other's safe. [ There's so many other things that could happen here that she doesn't want to limit it to just the jumps but she doesn't want to say anything else out loud. Hotspur's post left a hollowness in her chest even though she had no idea who he was and talking about it might make it worse. ]

Edited 2012-06-10 05:42 (UTC)

Right. [ he scrubs a hand across his face, ruffles his hair. sighs, heavily; it sounds like he might be pacing, a quiet scuff of his shoes on the floor. ]

We can—I dunno, meet up before each jump, walk to the stasis pods together. That way we'll be be next to each other when we get in and when we wake up. That sound acceptable to you?

[ It sounds incredibly co-dependent to her, actually, like she needs him to be there beside her to deal with all of this, but: ] Yeah, that would work, if you're sure you're okay with it.

[ he's not exactly the co-dependent type, having existed just fine on his own—after much chocolate and cream cake, 'like' turns into 'what was his name again—before this, but he can't argue that it's at least somewhat comforting. his comforts are a little... odd, being that they aren't usually regarded as comforts, but alice...

she's been with him on this crazy ship from the beginning, and before that. granted, it was her arriving in wonderland that had set off the whole bloody problem in the first place, but still. familiarity breeds support. or something.

at least, that's what he's telling himself. ]

'Course I'm okay with it. [ he shakes his head. then: ] Where would we meet up? Before, y'know. Walking.

My room? Or your room, I guess. I don't really care either way.

[ She tells herself the only reason she wants to keep him as close as she does is because his face is familiar. Not that she trusts him or considers him a friend or anything; all of that is too much for her to accept. At least right now. ]

Maybe some place in the middle.

Yeah, maybe—

[ and then he stops, because this—it's ridiculous. and what he's thinking is ridiculous. but it's a hell of a lot easier than walking to and fro like some half-mad jujub bird with its toes missing; why don't they just... ?

but no. is that too forward? ah, to hell with it; if alice is uncomfortable with the idea, she'll tell him. ]

Listen, Alice. Each room has two beds, right?

[ There's a stretch of silence on Alice's side before: ] Are you suggesting what I think you're suggesting, Hatter?

[ The strange this is, she had considered it - briefly, back when the fear gas happened - but it was more a passing thought than anything she actually entertained. ]

Probably. [ he pauses, unsure. ] Only if you're fine with it.

It'd just be living, right? Like roommates? [ ~~She's not really sure how she wants him to answer that.~~ ]

[ he nods—then, realizing she can't see him, clears his throat. it's somehow much easier to to do this when he's not face-to-face with her; he imagines it... would be. more difficult to get the words out. if he were.

of course it's just rooming. he didn't. wouldn't suggest anything other than that. ]

Like roommates. [ he forces a grin. ] Your virtue's safe, Alice. This is just a matter of... convenience.

[ another grimace. wrong word? he adds: ] And if it doesn't work out, we can always move back to our respective rooms.

A matter of convenience. [ For some reason, those four little words bother her. Instead of dwelling on it and trying to figure out why, Alice just pushes it aside and straightens a bit, though he can't see her, either.

It does make sense, especially when it comes to situations like today, and she'd be lying if she said the idea of having someone in the room with her at night wouldn't be comfortable. With everything that's going on, she has a feeling that the sound of someone else's breathing might help her from freaking out in the middle of the night. ]

Do you want me to move into your room, or vice versa? Or does it matter?

[ he thinks on that for a moment. does it matter? it doesn't, really—but he'll act the gentleman anyway, since that's apparently what he does now, at least in matters that concern alice. ]

Yours. I'll move into yours. There isn't much to carry. [ there's the tea and the parka and the gun, which he hasn't told her about yet—but he will—and not much else. ]

[ She honestly expected him to say he'd prefer to stay in his room, though she's not entirely sure why, and the surprise is fairly evident in her voice. ] Are you sure? I don't really have a lot, either. [ Possibly even less than him. ]

I'm sure. It's no problem. Really, it's—fine. [ he infuses his voice with certainty that he's not sure he really feels. ]

Keeps me on me toes, at any rate.

[ then he exhales, rubs at his face again. ]

Alright. Okay. So when're we gonna do this?

Whenever you want, I guess. It's sort of up to you since you're going to be the one moving. [ She kind of wants to say today, but she doesn't want him thinking she's overly eager or anything. ]

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