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ataraxion2015-05-16 01:52 pm
forgodssake) wrote in ataraxion2015-05-16 01:52 pm
oo7. video.
[ Charles Xavier has managed to time this video for a moment when he isn't bleeding from the face, but his face is quite white, like maybe he has been not so long ago. When he speaks, his tone is level and informative-- but in most other ways, a certain amount of anxiety radiates off of him.
One of his eyes has blood blotting over white at the corner from burst blood vessel. ]
I wanted to share something I found when I was asked to examine Felix Laurens. Some of you know I have psychic abilities and-- well, now all of you do. [ Ha. Ahh. Anyway. ] I sought to find out what-- prevented him from speaking directly, or caused him to behave in strange ways, and a little about how he came to be here at all. Last we knew, he was dead.
What I found was a second presence, buried deep in his mind. His consciousness was separated from it by a sort of psychic, membranous barrier, which I don’t know the nature of. In my haste, I broke through the barrier so I could understand what it was, and-- initially, it was just. Sounds. Memories. Thousands of them, and I wasn't able to make any sense of it. But there was something else, too, something intelligent and aware that seemed to see me, like a single searching eye, and tried to-- do something. Pull me in, is what it felt like, to all that noise. Felix helped break off the connection before that could happen, and I experienced symptoms not unlike the ones we're experiencing now.
[ Charles hesitates. Taps his fingers against the desk. Continues, to the point. ]
It's in everyone. Everyone's mind.
This barrier is, anyway. It reads to me as being "thinner" [ you can hear the quotation marks in his tone ] for those who have been here longer, and "thinner" for those that attended Shepard's recon mission a while back. I haven't looked beneath it since I observed it in Laurens, but only because I fear that I'd find the same thing.
It's also-- I believe-- causing the rolling side effects we're all experiencing now, or has something to do with them. I've observed that there is a resistance happening, a ripping, like the barrier is trying to detach from our minds, and then when we seek physical contact and the symptoms abate, the barrier strengthens. Perhaps it isn't a barrier at all, but a--
[ He stops. He hadn't want to ramble and speculate. ]
Study is ongoing, anyway, about what it means for us, what it does to us. I'll put up my own findings in the archival timeline, and keep it up to date. If-- if anyone like me is looking to confirm this phenomenon, I can't stress enough that it's important you go carefully. It will overpower you, given the chance.
[ Grim public service announcement executed, he tries to consider how to sign off. ]
For those that are newer, my name is Professor Xavier, with Xenogen. Sorry about all that.
[ Aaand cut. ]
One of his eyes has blood blotting over white at the corner from burst blood vessel. ]
I wanted to share something I found when I was asked to examine Felix Laurens. Some of you know I have psychic abilities and-- well, now all of you do. [ Ha. Ahh. Anyway. ] I sought to find out what-- prevented him from speaking directly, or caused him to behave in strange ways, and a little about how he came to be here at all. Last we knew, he was dead.
What I found was a second presence, buried deep in his mind. His consciousness was separated from it by a sort of psychic, membranous barrier, which I don’t know the nature of. In my haste, I broke through the barrier so I could understand what it was, and-- initially, it was just. Sounds. Memories. Thousands of them, and I wasn't able to make any sense of it. But there was something else, too, something intelligent and aware that seemed to see me, like a single searching eye, and tried to-- do something. Pull me in, is what it felt like, to all that noise. Felix helped break off the connection before that could happen, and I experienced symptoms not unlike the ones we're experiencing now.
[ Charles hesitates. Taps his fingers against the desk. Continues, to the point. ]
It's in everyone. Everyone's mind.
This barrier is, anyway. It reads to me as being "thinner" [ you can hear the quotation marks in his tone ] for those who have been here longer, and "thinner" for those that attended Shepard's recon mission a while back. I haven't looked beneath it since I observed it in Laurens, but only because I fear that I'd find the same thing.
It's also-- I believe-- causing the rolling side effects we're all experiencing now, or has something to do with them. I've observed that there is a resistance happening, a ripping, like the barrier is trying to detach from our minds, and then when we seek physical contact and the symptoms abate, the barrier strengthens. Perhaps it isn't a barrier at all, but a--
[ He stops. He hadn't want to ramble and speculate. ]
Study is ongoing, anyway, about what it means for us, what it does to us. I'll put up my own findings in the archival timeline, and keep it up to date. If-- if anyone like me is looking to confirm this phenomenon, I can't stress enough that it's important you go carefully. It will overpower you, given the chance.
[ Grim public service announcement executed, he tries to consider how to sign off. ]
For those that are newer, my name is Professor Xavier, with Xenogen. Sorry about all that.
[ Aaand cut. ]
video, private
[the woman on the video looks as though she knows this is an odd question. right after that she winces a little, but she does not seem to be aware that her nose is bleeding. or something like bleeding, anyway, since what's dripping from her nose is ichorous and mostly pearly-black.]
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[ Apologetic, to a point. There is some information he searched for, and other matters simply exposed to. ]
I remember better the impression of its focus. The feeling you get when you realise something is looking at you. That sort of thing. Your-- you're bleeding, a little.
[ Probably. That's probably what's happening there. ]
video, private
[her eyes go a little panicky and she presses a handkerchief--also black--to her nose. it's pretty obvious that it's not the bleeding that bothers her, it's that he saw her bleeding. still, she makes a very good attempt at regaining her composure, even if pinching her nose makes her words a bit stuffy.]
That keeps happening at the most inconvenient moments. Predator-looking? Like the feeling of being hunted?
video, private
[ There's the sympathetic twist of a smile nested subtle at the corner of his mouth. Eye contact achieved through the third-party nature of the comms devices is uneven, thanks to the blood blotting out the corner of one eye. Nothing doing for it. ]
I think any other qualities I would assign to it would be muddled up in my own being afraid, at the time. Why do you ask?
video, private
[that makes her look thoughtful, and she tucks her hair behind her ear, revealing that it is also bleeding that same black ichor down her neck. there's enough of it this time to see that it's threaded with red and gold.]
Your description reminded me of something from home. But it would not normally be inside a human, especially without their noticing. But you think it's related to the White Room somehow?
video, private
[ Gently, not sharp. He doesn't think that's what she's proposing, literally, but just to be clear. ]
It's from this world, of that I'm quite certain. And as for the White Room, I don't exactly know how it's all connected. I don't know if it is in league with the White Room, or resides in the White Room, or if it wants to keep us from the White Room. But it's possible that exposure to the White Room is what's thinning the barrier.
[ 'White Room' is no longer words. ]
video, private
[it's not argumentative, she's trying to explain her line of thought. it's hard, with the headache.]
I haven't been here that long, but there are already certain...corruptions inside of me. [she takes the handkerchief from her nose and gestures to indicate her weird blood. the nosebleed hasn't stopped, but it's too late to put that cat back in the bag, anyway.] What I mean to say is that I have...shouldered a fairly intense mental burden on my own. If I can do that, perhaps it would make some difference in your looking.
[sophie has some theories of her own on the white room and smiley, but she hasn't been here, and that makes it too hard to know.]
video, private
[ He's open to volunteering. ]
This place sometimes brings out monsters from home. It plays off our memories, and takes those shapes, probably to scare us in a more specific sort of way. It's not to say they're really here, but I wouldn't mind hearing about what about my description is similar.
I managed to achieve video footage of a likeness of what I saw, actually. We have a fear demon type creature that takes on the things you're most afraid of, kept in containment. Currently, that gaze is what I'm afraid of. I can send it your way, if it's of interest. I can't say it's accurate or useful, but perhaps interesting.
video, private
[the network, she means, conveying so with a flick of her fingers toward the screen.]
I would like to see it, yes. If nothing else, I prefer to know what is inside me. Not knowing is...something of a first.
[as a shapeshifter, the idea that something else could be lurking inside her that she did not need to shape is extremely disquieting.]
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If you wish to come by and explain, I'll have time in about four hours from now. My office is in the science department, on level three.
[ attachment: boggart_flyingeyeball.vid ]
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That was...interesting. Like it's still searching, not that it's found anything yet.
Four hours from now is fine. Also, I saw you were speaking with Rey. She's been staying with me, so I can come down with her if you like--she doesn't seem to do very well on her own at the moment. I'm sure I can find a way to occupy myself [probably by chatting with ivan] while you speak with her.
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[ He sounds a little surprised, like his idea of Rey the Solo Wolf is so ingrained that to know she has a better half of the friendly sort is unexpected.
Not bad, though. ]
Yes, that would be fine, if Rey likes. You'll know she's been here the longest, along with our CSO -- but she was also a part of the recon expeditions.
[ He doesn't spell out what that means, in part because he doesn't know for certain -- but it might make everything a little more fragile to study. ]
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She cannot hurt me, you see.
[make of that what ye will, charles.]
Rey is...she isolated herself for most of the space of a jump, after what happened with the Room. But I'm safe, because she cannot hurt me and I can take her down, if it comes to that.
[brittle, is what sophie means. she's brittle.]