Emma has burned out. The first six months on the Tranquility felt like one long adrenaline high — if she fought hard enough, worked hard enough, pushed hard enough, she could get off this boat and back to her son. Henry was never far from her mind, and the pressure to get him home and safe was all that could carry her through.
That wind has left her sails. Each day that creeps by is a day longer that she feels like she's abandoned him. They'd had less than a year together — she's been on the ship almost that long, now. She's letting him down, and if it were her? By now, she'd already be lost. She'd already have given up hope that anyone was coming for her.
Regina and Belle's news tempered the sentiment, but it still sticks in her gut. It feels like she's out of time. It feels like she's already lost him, and the notion that she just has to hope and leave him waiting doesn't do much to help. It sounds exactly like what Mary Margaret would say, and in some ways, that just makes her heart ache because god, she misses her mother.
She misses her mother and she doesn't feel like there's anyone she can explain that properly to because she's never even felt like she had a mother until they were separated, and now suddenly she's orphaned all over again.
Maybe that's why she can't pretend that she's just fine with the notion of Henry waiting. Emma spent 28 years waiting for her parents to come back, to find her, to swoop in and save her, and they never did. These lonely months on the Tranquility only remind her of a lifetime of loneliness, of feeling unloved. ]
Hope won't change the fact that one day he's gonna stop waiting. Just like I did. Hope can't get us home.
no subject
Emma has burned out. The first six months on the Tranquility felt like one long adrenaline high — if she fought hard enough, worked hard enough, pushed hard enough, she could get off this boat and back to her son. Henry was never far from her mind, and the pressure to get him home and safe was all that could carry her through.
That wind has left her sails. Each day that creeps by is a day longer that she feels like she's abandoned him. They'd had less than a year together — she's been on the ship almost that long, now. She's letting him down, and if it were her? By now, she'd already be lost. She'd already have given up hope that anyone was coming for her.
Regina and Belle's news tempered the sentiment, but it still sticks in her gut. It feels like she's out of time. It feels like she's already lost him, and the notion that she just has to hope and leave him waiting doesn't do much to help. It sounds exactly like what Mary Margaret would say, and in some ways, that just makes her heart ache because god, she misses her mother.
She misses her mother and she doesn't feel like there's anyone she can explain that properly to because she's never even felt like she had a mother until they were separated, and now suddenly she's orphaned all over again.
Maybe that's why she can't pretend that she's just fine with the notion of Henry waiting. Emma spent 28 years waiting for her parents to come back, to find her, to swoop in and save her, and they never did. These lonely months on the Tranquility only remind her of a lifetime of loneliness, of feeling unloved. ]
Hope won't change the fact that one day he's gonna stop waiting. Just like I did. Hope can't get us home.