And somebody saw me torturing Dru until she became the kind of empty shell of a human that I'd give anything to change. [ in all honesty, it makes him feel ill thinking about it, teeth gritted in frustation. but they're still family to him, some twisted up version of something he still craves, despite the wreckage it's all managed to cause.

he's miserable about it, point blank, but what can he do? ]

People've found out the worst parts of it, people that can't even begin to understand what it was like. You can let them leave it up to their imagination, you can move on, but we can't skip it. It's already happened and the best we can do is own up to the it, even if it's the last thing you want to talk about. I don't care if you don't tell anyone, I get that it's none of their business. But you've gotta acknowledge the fact that they know.

[ saying that many words is exhausting. he needs a nap now. ]