[ He leans back a little, pressing the back of his hand to his eyes. Calm. He's going to stay calm. But when he finally looks at Kurt, sees him crying, it all seems to work backwards. His expression falls. ]

That gun belongs to someone I know, and it only had one bullet it in. You know what that means, right? [ He bites at his lip, the words tumbling free. ] If he's not here to do it, I should just do it myself. But I-- I wouldn't do that.

[ Bells presses his palm to Kurt's cheek. ] I wouldn't do that to you, okay? I'm not like that. I just needed... I didn't know what else to do.