thebreakingwave: (! snakehand)
a wizard. ([personal profile] thebreakingwave) wrote in [community profile] ataraxion2013-08-17 11:29 pm

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If wishes were horses, you'd all believe me when I said this was a 'hypothetical' scenario and I wouldn't need to post this anonymously.

From a young age, I was raised to be used in war. Knowingly or otherwise, I was trained to be the right sort of soldier; eager to fight, to support a just cause, and, if needs be, to die for that cause.

I did all of that and my war is over.

But now, I'm here, and at a loss for what to do with myself. I can fill my hours well enough, but that's all it is - passing the time.

I know that many of you are warriors in your homelands and I'd like to know how you've adapted to this place or to any time when you're not being used to fight.

Thank you.
circumitus: Completely decimated and my hand was all bloody and covered with glass. Weird dude, never saw him again ever since. (got into a bar fight last night)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-18 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
been here a long time. fought wars even longer.
truth is, i haven't adapted. i don't believe i ever will.
circumitus: Because you're marine grade... You rascal. (you need 400 proof or marine proof)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
yes.
apologies if that is not the answer you wanted. it is only my experience and the experience of others that i have learned from. but there is truth to the saying, you can never go home again.
circumitus: (503): forewarning i'll probably have done those drugs with you (i wanna bring you to show and tell)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
good to take off the rose-colored glasses while you're ahead.

i suppose you were a child soldier then?
[Based on what she's seen from stalking reading other conversations.]
circumitus: Legit 2 miles, and purchased 7 half gallons. One for each of us. Intense. (we walked 2 miles)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
tend to go hand in hand.

known child soldiers before. would just make adapting to any situation more difficult when you are raised into that life from an early age.
circumitus: even drones can fly away.... the queen is their slave... (chill out big head)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
yes, but after they become adults? less likely to be the case.
circumitus: - XOXO dad (time to smoke my breakfast)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
possibly. though quite a few who are raised into that life are not as gifted to brim with possibilities. old habits die hard.
circumitus: She literally cut my boxers off with a 8" chef's knife and had her way with me. (tomorrow never knows)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
care to elaborate?
circumitus: (hook me up with the drugs dog)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-19 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
makes sense, in a way.
Edited 2013-08-19 23:56 (UTC)
circumitus: (503): forewarning i'll probably have done those drugs with you (i wanna bring you to show and tell)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-20 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
and yet here you are, at your loss. not so easy to adapt for a child is it?
circumitus: Keep up the good work. (it's a 12/12/12 miracle)

[personal profile] circumitus 2013-08-21 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
then i suggest you find a hobby of sorts.